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A night at the bar with OCD
I have OCD with fear of Hep C and HIV infection. I recently went out to a bar. I bumped into a guy (I'm a guy) it was a "straight" bar. I said sorry, he said "no reason to be sorry, just watch out" Then I walked by. Then he said "Who does your hair?" I know my hair looks sort of funny, since I comb it different trying to hide my receding hairline (I'm 46). I turn around, walk back a stare him in the eye and ask, is there a problem? He says "no". Next day I start thinking what if this guy was coming on to me and later raped me and I just don't remember, fearing HIV. I have not remembered things in the past when I was out drinking (like someone driving me home). Now I am just sick with the thought that I have to wait months to be tested to be sure...
Thank you very much for the comment, it is greatly appreciated. It seems like anal rape while incapacitated is the "flavor of the month" as I have had simular circumstances lately...Black out sometimes, can't remember, so I immediately think the worst(for me, anal rape, HIV) I guess I thought since time had passed since I left the bar (and several beers later) that maybe I was too impaired to remember...I guess I need to go back to therapy...
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Herpes sores blister, then burst, scab and heal.
Herpes spreads by oral, vaginal and anal sex.
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