Confused about Hocd

[gthadley24]

Ok I posted once before but my situation has changed. I barely get anxiety anymore to the feelings and my thoughts have decreased drastically. But I actually feel as if I'm gay and am in denial. Like I'll get a feeling a think its probably nothing, but I then think I'm just denying myself homosexuality. Even writing this I feel like I'm lying to myself... Idk I guess I feel as if I've been suppressing it but I've never not once had a fantasy of being with a man Always women.. I keep feeling as if I want a relationship with a man one minute but then I'll think "no you know you dont". I'll then feel like I'm lying and denying myself homosexuality... Please help

[gthadley24]

Good. I'm trying to recover but it always trys to creep up on me and it feels so real

[123tushar07]

my symptoms were different than hocd but yes i have recovered from it

[gthadley24]

Good I am presently in therapy. I will take all the measures to get better. Including three months no masturbation nor any porn. So I will keep on until I've overcome this. Eventually I hope to leave it in the past and laugh at it. If I may ask has your attraction recovered?

[123tushar07]

your situation has got better but you are not normal yet, have u taken help from a psychiatrist or have u started therapy? if yes then you need to continue it till you get completely out from ocd, generally it takes months to get completely normal, i myself got normal in about 6-7 months so be patient and continue your treatment