Obsessing over HIV

[AlwaysWorriedAF]

Hey everyone .. hope this is the right forum ..

I’ve had a sexual encounter a month and a half back .. i got over it as in the other forum they said it is no risk and i calmed down .. the thing im starting to suspect everything in my life that is going to give me the disease.

For example
1 - after the encounter .. i did a home test (neg) i was happy for a while , then i suspect that the one who gave it to me infected me.

2 - went to the dentist, and they gave me numbing injection .. when i left .. all am thinking about is what of the doctor injected me with hiv.

Am starting to suspect everything that is happening in my mind, deep down i know it is silly thinking .. but somehow i believe it .. and my mind keeps telling me .. what if it happend ? How can you be sure ? And i start catastrophizing over it ..

I mean i always go to the dentist and go to the doctor, but somehow my encounter triggered that part in my brain.

Please help me as it is a serious problem.  

[specialmom]

At least you acknowledge that you have a mental health issue.  That's a great start.  You know this is what is happening in your mind.  I have no idea of your location but how are your mental health professionals?  Are you able to see one?  This is what you really must do in order to overcome this type of obsessive and destructive pattern of thinking.  A good psychiatrist that can work with medications for you along with a psychotherapist that treats ocd would be best.  This is treatable.  You aren't going to get HIV.  But your constant fear is ruining your life.  Treat the fear. good luck

[AlwaysWorriedAF]

Hey .. i hope you are getting the bigger picture .. i’ve never been obsessed about anything and never thought about it, and i have many examples were this happened, im in a place were people will say am crazy if i go to a psychiatrist .. but is it early to go now or i can overcome this alone ? Its been a month and a half