I was sexual abuse as a child at the age of 6 by a kid that is the same sex as I am and have strong sexual desire for men private parts only. I don't like men in any way beside that and is not all the time. I do like women and just want them but I do get these thoughts and feeling I don't want. I do not know what I am feeling is intrusive thoughts or I am just bi. I get so confused at times and not sure what I am anymore. I do shameful of what I am feeling and not sure why I have these thoughts for.