Do I have OCD?

[Katiedid14]

In the spring one day I randomly questions God's existence and i just generally felt disconnected. Within a few days it was a lot worse and I was at school and felt like I was sitting and watching the world move around me and I felt so disconnected and it was like an out of body experience.  And I was questioning EVERYTHING. Why are we here. Why do we do what we do. Why did God create u. Did God create us. does God exist. Did Jesus come to earth and die. On and on. And I have been a Christian my entire life and was enjoying a strong spiritual life up till this time. So it scared me to death! I felt away from God and I didn't like it.

So this went on for a while and one day didn't feel this way anymore and was even more thankful for my faith I when I felt normal again. Since then I have had periods of doubt and anxiety and periods of good times full of faith and no doubt. Well the times of doubt and disconnectedness from God have become longer and longer. And I feel helpless. And I feel like it is my fault I don't believe fully and yet I feel like if I truly didn't believe then it wouldn't bother me so much. It is almost all I can think about.

I just can't figure out whyyy this randomly popped into my head. I was so confident and strong in my faith.

This has caused me to pray even more and literally read my Bible everyday but I just can seem to shake the doubt and questioning.

[Katiedid14]

Thanks you so much!

[JGF25]

People think things and ponder them for a while and then let them go.  When you can't let something go...when it takes up much of your daily life for an extended period of time, then that is an indication that you need to see a psychologist to get their take on it.  I can't say that you have OCD because I am not qualified but it sure does sound like it.  

[Katiedid14]

That describes a lot of the ways I am feeling! So does that mean I have OCD? I haven't told anyone really about how I feel because I keep telling myself that I am just thinking it's OCD and it's really just me or maybe it will go away and I will "grow out of it"
Thank you for replying!

[JGF25]

Hi there...here is a former thread about the same thing I believe.  Why don't you give it a read and then let me know if I can be of any more help.  

http://www.medhelp.org/posts/Obsessive-Compulsive-Disorder-OCD-/HELP-Existential-Philosophical-Solipsism-OCD/show/1580372