HELP ME!!

[Thematrix1]

hi , i have been diagnosed with OCD(pure O) and schizophrenia and have the obsessional theme of a sexual nature, ive been like this for about 4.5 years, is it a part of OCD(pure o) to get intrusive thoughts triggered by stimuli?? for example when i see a child i panic and get intrusive thoughts in graphic detail which can happen either when i see a child in real life or on the television or even just thinking about a kid. Im close to 99% sure i am NOT a sexual creep as i am disgusted by the intrusive thoughts and i know i will never act out. All my health workers tell me its Pure o OCD and it makes total sense. I just wish i knew how to desensitize myself but have been trapped in this horrible cycle. Please help

[ant87294]

Hi there, here is my story. I was as ordinary a lad you could imagine, no bad thoughts or feelings etc when I one day ( at a stressful time in my life) began getting intrusive horrible thoughts about my own niece, they caused a huge amount of anxiety and they came one after another. Literally anything and everything sexual, violent was shown to me as images in my head. I occasionally got words being put into my head also and it drove me into horrible anxiety and depression. The guilt was horrific, I did come out and tell my girlfriend who was incredibly supportive and didnt panic which I was so relieved about. Anyway after a while the anxiety had faded and so did the images, I dealt with them by telling myself they weren't my fault. However I then noticed I was beginning to feel sensitive around younger girls and felt as though an attraction had been born.. Which I hated, this drove me to avoiding literally every young or little girl I saw. This went on for ages and I could hardly do anything without needed to turn away or avoid every young girl in sight. One day I realised I needed to face it so although it made me anxious i started to try to just look wherever my eyes took me. After a while it was much better, then came really weird things such as if I was looking at a child I couldn't have any parts of my body in contact with my private parts, I would quickly move my arms hands or legs so that I wouldn't be 'doing something wrong'  each time a child was on tv or sometimes even just their voice on the radio. And if I hadn't moved them I would then beat myself up for long periods of time until I had fixed it in my head and felt better. Please anyone if you any experiences do reply as it really would be appreciated. I have an appointment with the dr and I'm going to take it from there with getting help something I should of done a long time ago.

[JGF25]

Hi there.  Yes...Pure O is awful.  The stuff we come up with is absolutely amazing.  In any case what you are going through is a horrific thought which is why it is so bothersome.  So you have seen health workers who have diagnosed you but what have they done to help you?  What is their plan to help you?