night before surgery

[nikki250]

the night before my surgery, had to drink that god awful concoction that clears out your system
i dont feel like doing this, my stomach is turning at the thought of being put under, i dont even know how far there going to take the surgery, staging may be done on the spot which means that ugly scar to my bellybutton may go to my diaphram.  the thought of all of this being completley out of my control sux
my friend called and asked if im nervous, nervous about what? what a dumb question
thats it, im done venting, i dont feel like being positive, im bitter,

[crecco]

I think bitter is an emotion that we all know, as is fear, especially fear of the unknown. As a few of the others have said, when you wake up it will all be over. I know that I was scared to death, but it wasn't near as bad as I made it out to be. And yes, we will always have that ugly reminder every time we look in the mirror. I know its hard, but try not to fret to much. I'm sure you will come through it like a breeze. My thoughts will be with you. Best wishes and LOL. Chris

[Brownie3321]

Good luck tomorrow, sweetie. You vent all you want, this is where to do it! WE all understand the need to vent.
If we are all comparing scars - I think I beat you all. My scar starts right under my breasts and goes all the way down to below pelvic area. Plus, I have a 2 1/2 inch scar right under my rib cage where they put the IP port. AND, I have a worthless 1 1/2 inch scar where they put my first IV chest port (it was defected), and a brand new spanking 1 1/2 inch scar where the new undefected chest IV port was put in a few inches a way from the 1st one. To top it off, I don't want to toot my own horn or anything, but I was the QUEEN of bikini's!! TEAR...

[malbiu]

I have a 10in scar from 1992 last year they went in the same one other then the doctors talking about it you don't really think about it much.. When you look in the mirror look at the big pitcher because of that scar you are here to enjoy anther day..You will be in my thoughts and prayers ( Hope your recovery go's fast and smooth )     Malbiu

[Carebear215]

Nikki
I don't know you or much about what is going on with you but you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Keep us posted when you can.
Try to go in with postive thoughts.

[SimplyStar]

Have to tell you ladies about those long "scars"  I had an exploratory surgery when I was 24, now at 77  I can't hardly see the darn thing.  Wonder if I should go buy that Bikini now?  Laughing at myself.
Nikki  Good luck to you tomorrow, all will work out for you, get past this hurdle  and you sure can tackle the rest of it.

[Helmar]

Hi Nikki...Unfortunately you don't have any choice but to go and have your surgery, as the alternative wouldn't be of interest to you, I'm sure. As Marie says... the worst is the 'not knowing' but most of us have been there now, and  can maybe help allay your fears. It's the fear of the unknown that takes over, but you will have a good medical team, and when you wake up, it will all be over, and then you will just recoup in time. I tend to look at things in a practicle way, and a scar running down the entire front of me, from publc bone to chest is worth it, to still be here almost 4 years on.
I wish you all the best with your operation, and look forward to hearing really good news in the coming weeks. All the best... and lots of hugs...Helen...

[rmarie]

my ugly scar runs from my pubic bone to my just below my diaphram, and I never wear a bikini again, but then I never wore one.  I do wear a 3 piece.  Agree it does suck, The anesthesia is the easy part, cause you don't know it's coming and you don't wake up till it is over.  The hard part is the prep and the not knowing.  I know this doesn't help, but you really want to know what it is, and what you have to deal with.  Knowledge is power.  Positve energy and thoughts to you.  Good luck and let us know how you do as soon as you can.
Marie

[Kimchi]

Know how you feel, bitter is the right word.  Just don't let it eat you up...good luck with your op tomorrow

[Eyeofthetiger]

I am 12 days post op and it is getting better. My "zipper" runs from my belly button to my pubic bone so my modelling career is over ;-).  
I understand your frustration (and yes it does suck). I don't know if it helps at all but I am trying to take it one thing at a time, operation, staging, and whatever else I have to do to beat this.

Thinking of you
Val