So far so good, but having a "freak out" moment

[adgal]

This is one of those posts where there is no real question, just need to get these feelings out.  Dr. is going with 4 weeks, 4 days along.  He is counting the bleeding last month as LMP as it would have been right on schedule, and I only had a HPT positive 2 days before.  I asked him about the term chemical pregnancy, and he said that is a term commonly used, so I guess that was probably what it was.  But as there is no way to know for sure as it was never Dr. confirmed, I guess that makes sense to me.  At lease I know approximately when I ovulated.  So far no spotting, no major cramping,and I actually feel really good.  My only real concern is that the symptoms come and go, but its so early, and I know thats pretty normal.  For the most part I am ok, but every now and then, like this morning, I get this feeling of total terror.  I am so scared of losing this one.  All my tests came back just fine, and my Dr. feels there is no real extra risk associated with this pregnancy. I even took another HPT this morning, and it came back a very very dark BFP.  Knowing all that, why I am I so scared.  Today I feel like I am losing it a bit, I just can't concentrate on anything else.  I even started googling m/c, which didn't help matters at all.  Why do I do this to myself.  Thanks for letting me get that out. My DH and friends are starting to think I am a bit nuts.  They just don't get it.

[adgal]

Thanks you guys.  I know, I just know its going to be ok this time.  We can all lean on each other...it helps so much.

Take care and lots of hugs to you both.

[carpediemforlife]

Hello my friend....you know that I am 100% in understanding with your feelings about your preg.  I also think its natural to be consumed with it totally and scared.  Im at 10 wks now and I read from time to time someone losing babies at 16 or 18 wks and my heart almost stops.  This is the most relaxed Ive been since I found out and Im still edgy. (so my DH says)  

When you want something so bad it can be frustrating to try and NOT think about it.  I think in the coming weeks you and I will both be fine!! And probably get a few laughs in the coming months about our fears.  Just know what you are feeling you arent feeling alone.

[maybebaby29]

You're not nuts. You have normal fears. Is progesterone suppositories and option?