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[sophiebacon]

I'm pregnant again after a painful stillbirth.
Oh, hello. I'm 20. Due date is march 10th and so over this pregnancy thing.
Last time around I had a baby girl on March 4th. Her due date was April 4th. I was surprised to see she was normal sized. A little underweight but still cuddly and beautiful. It was horrible having to leave without her. Now with this one, the due date is so close to last time's delivery date and all in all, I just don't want it. Could be real feelings or hormones making me fickle.
Well, not much of a question. just wanted to tell someone

[sophiebacon]

Thank you guys
I truly do WANT to be excited and happy. Its just not happening :(

[rosealie23]

The way you feel is totally normal. Don't be beat you self up and feel so bad. You are protecting your self from another heart break and that is a normal reaction to a loss like you have been through. You will be excited when baby is born alive and healthy... but until then you probably won't change the way you feel. Good luck and I hope you find away to deal...

[rosealie23]

Find someone to talk to.. it would be great if you could find a therapist... they will be slightly irritating but you will find that it helps with anxiety. I am sorry for your loss and hope all goes well with this baby.

[Allocate]

I hope you start getting excited, if not maybe look into adoption?

[sophiebacon]

I've seen it. The heartbeat and everything. I haven't heard it yet. I thought I'd change my mind when I saw it but no cigar. I just don't care.

[meeshathreatt]

I understand is just the feeling of not wanting to get excited because that let down is almost unbearable

[Allocate]

:( it might be your hormones. There is a reason you are pregnant again but you wont know until a little bit later on. Have you heard the heartbeat yet?

[HermosaDee]

I could understand how difficult it may be
But just see it as a blessing
Take extra good care of yourself
Think positive
Good luck

[sophiebacon]

Thanks. I feel like I have no business being pregnant. I wasn't excited at any stage. I still have to force a smile when my boyfriend's mom talks about it. I find myself wanting to forget that I'm pregnant until it feels like coming out

[Allocate]

I have never been through this but im here if you just wanna talk