Hi. I too am sorry for your loss. However, you've been given guidance by your doctor. No one here can or should give you advice to do anything otherwise. I know it is hard and hard to wait. But the big picture is such that you really should. hugs
Your body physically isnt ready to bear another child yet due to stretched muscles, tissue, and skin. Then you also have on top of that a very major surgery that has cut and sliced through many nerves, tissue, and muscles. Think about it like this it took your body 9 months to stretch and carry a baby. Don't you think it would atleast take another 9 to go back to normal? I wouldn't advise it. Maybe discuss with your OB what the effect may be of getting pregnant again now.
Hiya hun so sorry to hear about your loss. I'd wait at least a year in my opinion I had a emergency x c section 6 years ago with my first an now I'm 37 weeks on Monday. My scar tissue is thinning and with you not long having c section you could erupt you scar if you have a vaginal birth again theres a lot of risks of just take it easy and when the times right it'll happen.