Reading ur post is like peaking into my mind that far along. This whole time i have been saying this is my first and last. I think a lot of my problem was not only was i sick as hell and depressed bcuz of it but i hadn't really felt pregnant, just sick. Like i had the stomach flu 24/7. But i can tell u it gets better. Once the nausea backed off and i seen my baby at the anatomy scan it got a lot better. My baby no longer looked like a little gummy bear on the screen he looked like a real baby. That experience really helped me connect to my baby. That's when things got real. Then i began feeling his movements, and outgrowing my clothes. Then i finally reached that point that you could tell i am pregnant, and not just borderline chunky. I bought some new maternity clothes from target and now feel so much better. I have problems with my hands and feet swelling, back pain, and heartburn but i am almost there. 35 weeks now. I do recommend getting a 3d ultrasound done at some point. That has really helped me connect even more to my baby. I paid 89 dollars to have one done. And it feels more real to me now. I got to see my babys face. He has my dimple on his chin, my chubby cheeks, my husbands nose, my husbands full lips, and his big feet. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. My friends use to tell me all of the time that it's worth it in the end. I thought they were full of crap...but now i can agree.
I don't like being pregnant. All that motherly stuff is cute but I'm not so into it . I had the worst first trimester always throwing up and sleeping all the time . ive felt ugly throughout the whole pregnancy and to top it off I'm so emotional and I hate it. But it'll get better for u. Im 32 weeks now and I still don't like being pregnant cause of the pains but I'm impatient. I want my baby girl here already. I guess for me I hate being pregnant but I'm excited to be a mother. I'm a ftm and I'm 18 BTW.
Hopefully the second trimester will be easier! I was that way up until about 13 weeks then I loved being pregnant until about 30 weeks! Lol. But it does change!(: