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Is there any hope?
I am 27 years old. I had my first +hpt on 8/21/10. My LMP was on July 29. I am not sure of my ovulation or conception date. My cycle was not regular for a few months before I got pregnant so I can't be certain when I should have expected my next one. My dr's have estimated my due date as 5/5/11 (based on my LMP) so I am basing the gestational ages I will mention on that date.
On 9/8/10 I went to the dr that I was previously seeing because I had some very, very mild bleeding but I still wanted them to check that everything was okay. On that day, I should have been approximately 5w6d. I had an u/s that day and all that could be seen was the gestational sac. The u/s tech said that this was normal for how far along I was and that my due date may even be off by a few days. They said the bleed could have been from a subchorionic hematoma but that it was nothing to worry about and was fairly common. They put me on progesterone suppositories that I had been using until two days ago.
The next day, on 9/9/10 my HCG levels were at 12,000. I saw a different dr this day (I was still trying to decide on where I would feel most comfortable receiving my maternal care). On this day they only did blood work. I had an appointment to come back on 9/13/10 which would have put me at 6w4d. I had an u/s (this was 5 days after the first one) and we saw a gestational and yolk sac but no fetal pole or heartbeat. The dr said that she was concerned that because my HCG was at 12,000 there should have been more visible on the u/s. She sent me for more blood work to get my HCG level checked again. She called me that night at home and told me that my HCG was only up to 20,000 and that, based on the reading 4 days prior, it should have been almost at 50,000. But, that even at that high of a level, there should have definitely been more on the u/s. She said she thought the levels had already spiked and were probably declining at this point. She also said, "I do not think this is going to turn out the way we hoped." Basically, that I should prepare myself for the worst. She asked to see me back in two days to check my HCG again and do another u/s.
I went back on 9/15/10 (GA=6w6d) and my HCG was at 21,170. Up only 1,170 in about a 40 hour time span. She said that this was not enough to make a difference in her previous theory. I also had another u/s and she said that there wasn't much of a change on that either. My husband and I thought this u/s looked differently but the dr. insisted it was only bc it was magnified more than the last one. She also said that there didn't appear to be any blood flow to the gestational sac which was another negative sign of viability. She said that she believed either there had never been a baby form or that one formed but stop growing almost as soon as it started. Possibly even a blighted ovum. Finally, she told me that I should expect to start bleeding within a week. I opted to wait for a natural miscarriage rather than have a d&c. The dr requested that she see me again next week (at which point I should be almost 8 weeks by their estimated due date) but I'm not sure what her plans are then. She did say that if I had not started the natural miscarriage within two weeks, she wants to do a d&c. At this point, it has been two days since our last visit and I have not had any bleeding, cramping, etc.
My question is this...should I give up all hope that there may still be a little bean growing inside of me? Is it at all possible that my dates are off and that it's too early to see anything...even though my HCG levels were so high. I have several friends who are pregnant right now and they didn't even have their first u/s until they were at least 8 weeks. Some even later than that at 10 weeks. I by no means think that I am smarter than the dr, but I have read so many stories about misdiagnosed miscarriages. I do not want any false hope, only some answers and more information. I haven't had any pregnancy symptoms since I found out that I was pregnant other than mild nausea, terrible acne breakouts, and sore nipples. Those are all still present. Please just shoot me straight. At this point, I've already prepared myself for the worst.
On 9/8/10 I went to the dr that I was previously seeing because I had some very, very mild bleeding but I still wanted them to check that everything was okay. On that day, I should have been approximately 5w6d. I had an u/s that day and all that could be seen was the gestational sac. The u/s tech said that this was normal for how far along I was and that my due date may even be off by a few days. They said the bleed could have been from a subchorionic hematoma but that it was nothing to worry about and was fairly common. They put me on progesterone suppositories that I had been using until two days ago.
The next day, on 9/9/10 my HCG levels were at 12,000. I saw a different dr this day (I was still trying to decide on where I would feel most comfortable receiving my maternal care). On this day they only did blood work. I had an appointment to come back on 9/13/10 which would have put me at 6w4d. I had an u/s (this was 5 days after the first one) and we saw a gestational and yolk sac but no fetal pole or heartbeat. The dr said that she was concerned that because my HCG was at 12,000 there should have been more visible on the u/s. She sent me for more blood work to get my HCG level checked again. She called me that night at home and told me that my HCG was only up to 20,000 and that, based on the reading 4 days prior, it should have been almost at 50,000. But, that even at that high of a level, there should have definitely been more on the u/s. She said she thought the levels had already spiked and were probably declining at this point. She also said, "I do not think this is going to turn out the way we hoped." Basically, that I should prepare myself for the worst. She asked to see me back in two days to check my HCG again and do another u/s.
I went back on 9/15/10 (GA=6w6d) and my HCG was at 21,170. Up only 1,170 in about a 40 hour time span. She said that this was not enough to make a difference in her previous theory. I also had another u/s and she said that there wasn't much of a change on that either. My husband and I thought this u/s looked differently but the dr. insisted it was only bc it was magnified more than the last one. She also said that there didn't appear to be any blood flow to the gestational sac which was another negative sign of viability. She said that she believed either there had never been a baby form or that one formed but stop growing almost as soon as it started. Possibly even a blighted ovum. Finally, she told me that I should expect to start bleeding within a week. I opted to wait for a natural miscarriage rather than have a d&c. The dr requested that she see me again next week (at which point I should be almost 8 weeks by their estimated due date) but I'm not sure what her plans are then. She did say that if I had not started the natural miscarriage within two weeks, she wants to do a d&c. At this point, it has been two days since our last visit and I have not had any bleeding, cramping, etc.
My question is this...should I give up all hope that there may still be a little bean growing inside of me? Is it at all possible that my dates are off and that it's too early to see anything...even though my HCG levels were so high. I have several friends who are pregnant right now and they didn't even have their first u/s until they were at least 8 weeks. Some even later than that at 10 weeks. I by no means think that I am smarter than the dr, but I have read so many stories about misdiagnosed miscarriages. I do not want any false hope, only some answers and more information. I haven't had any pregnancy symptoms since I found out that I was pregnant other than mild nausea, terrible acne breakouts, and sore nipples. Those are all still present. Please just shoot me straight. At this point, I've already prepared myself for the worst.
I just wanted to come back and let your girls know what happened at my Dr's appt. yesterday. It has been a week since the last time I was there. The Dr. did not check my HCG again but I did have another ultrasound. Still nothing. We are still only seeing a gestational and yolk sac. The Dr is 100% that this is not a viable pregnancy. She said that the progression probably stopped before the fetal pole ever developed. This gives me some comfort. I am still waiting for the M/C to happen naturally right now, but I am almost certain I am going to schedule a D&C for next week. I'm just not sure how much longer that I can wait. I was concerned about the D&C because I had heard about scarring that may occur but I will be having the suction instead of the scraping. I just figure that the sooner this is over, the sooner we can try again.
At this point, I have accepted the loss and am looking forward to moving on. It still hurts from time to time, but please do not feel sorry for me. Here's why...
I read a quote that said, "Have God make a message out of your mess." This is my message to you...I am certain, beyond anything I've ever known, that this is part of God's perfect plan for our life. My husband and I are closer than we have ever been, both to each other and to our Heavenly Father. It is only by the grace of God that we have the strength to make it through this, but we know that it is part of a bigger plan than we can't even comprehend. I know that we will have a perfect little miracle when we come to that chapter that God has written in our love story. I continue to pray for strength and ask that you all remember us when you send your prayers up. I pray that each of you will praise the Lord in your trials and triumphs. He will give you strength that you never knew you had.
Good luck and wonderful blessings to all of you. I will keep you posted in the future as to any updates in our love story! May God bless you and keep you, always!
Love,
S
At this point, I have accepted the loss and am looking forward to moving on. It still hurts from time to time, but please do not feel sorry for me. Here's why...
I read a quote that said, "Have God make a message out of your mess." This is my message to you...I am certain, beyond anything I've ever known, that this is part of God's perfect plan for our life. My husband and I are closer than we have ever been, both to each other and to our Heavenly Father. It is only by the grace of God that we have the strength to make it through this, but we know that it is part of a bigger plan than we can't even comprehend. I know that we will have a perfect little miracle when we come to that chapter that God has written in our love story. I continue to pray for strength and ask that you all remember us when you send your prayers up. I pray that each of you will praise the Lord in your trials and triumphs. He will give you strength that you never knew you had.
Good luck and wonderful blessings to all of you. I will keep you posted in the future as to any updates in our love story! May God bless you and keep you, always!
Love,
S
There is nothing wrong with waiting and I don't think D&C is necessarily the answer (if you are to miscarry it would be best to do it naturally). All the information you provided doesn't sound promising. I'm so sorry! But definitely wait on the D&C and if you want get another sono in a couple of weeks. Please keep us posted!
I agree with the previous poster. Do not rush into a D & C. I had a missed miscarriage last aug where i went in for an 8 wk scan and only measured 6 wks with no heartbeat. I chose to take pills vaginally that will force your body to begin a natural miscarriage. I just hate the idea of having a pregnancy surgically removed. Our bodies are designed to be able to miscarry without medical intervention in most cases. I would say wait another week or two and see if you get a heartbeat. When i had no heartbeat at 8 weeks, they did another at 9 weeks to be sure and there was none. I'm 5 weeks preg and have not had a hcg level test yet but am already panicking that something is wrong due to decreasing symptoms. But i would say, even if you have high hcg levels, the fact that they are not doubling can be disturbing. And the ultrasound rarely lies. Ask for another u/s or two so you can be sure before making any decisions about D&C's, etc.
i can imagine how terrible it will be for you to going through all the things like that..
i will suggest that you listen to your heart and wait for the normal bleeding/ MC and then if its not happening, you can visit doctor again for teh ultrasound.. and hopefully.. you will see a better picture in 8 weeks.. Your HCG levels are still very high enough to give you all pregnancy symptoms..
I would suggest for you to wait and consult another Doctor if needed
Dont rush for D&C
i really wish you all the best..
i will suggest that you listen to your heart and wait for the normal bleeding/ MC and then if its not happening, you can visit doctor again for teh ultrasound.. and hopefully.. you will see a better picture in 8 weeks.. Your HCG levels are still very high enough to give you all pregnancy symptoms..
I would suggest for you to wait and consult another Doctor if needed
Dont rush for D&C
i really wish you all the best..
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