Hello everyone,
If anyone could read my story or offer me support or advice I would really appreciate it, I've had a rough few weeks and I think it's taking it's toll on me.
I'm 9 weeks pregnant and am so so scared. Over the past month I've had a few spotting scares. Each time my obgyn and midwife have put me on bedrest and it stops. But it always seems to start again whenever I get permission to resume normal activity. It starts out bright red (under 1mL) then when I lie down for a day or so it changes to brown and usually pass a small gathered clot (half a 5c piece) after a bm (sorry tmi!!) then it stops. As long as I stay lying down I don't bleed at all. Had a scan yesterday by midwife and she said things look good hb was 171. It was my birthday so my dad and partner took me out to a cafe as I hadn't been off the bed in over a week. Sure enough, went to bthroom and cm started to go light orange. By the end of the dinner I had definately pink spoting. Got home and had progressed to red, but not much only when I wipe (sorry tmi!!). I lay down and this morning it has gone back to orange and after bm (sorry tmi!!) there was a small brownish clot.
I'm surprised my obgyn hasn't been doing hcg tests nor have they ordered me a proper scan. I'm going to ask them to do this on my appt Monday.
I also have a little back pain but not sure whether it is because I've been lying down for so long on my back.
I had a mc in nov last year, so I'm scared to go through that again. I was due to start my holiday to Europe in a couple of days but since there have been complications my partner and I have decided that it's best if I stay home. I want him to go on his trip because he has worked so so so hard for it. Mybrother is going to come staywith mefor 5 weeks whilst he away. I feel so scaed and alone, thanks for reading my story.