Don't feel so hard on yourself, a lot of things we experience right now are extremely real, and sometimes horrible. You know what I'm dealing with right now? For the past month, I've been testing myself. If I eat after 6PM, I have HORRIBLE HORRIBLE HORRIBLE nightmares. And doctor said it's normal! I mean, nightmares about my first child. I wake up screaming sometimes. Throughout my first trimester, I constantly felt sick to my stomach but never threw up and never had morning sickness. I see spots, too. I just found out last week that they're called "floaters" and are very common in pregnancy. It's crazy! My braxton hicks hurt sometimes, if they were to bring me to tears, I'd run to the hospital too. That's scary.
Yeah I know the hospital are so good and always say any bit of doubt or worry come straight in.
That's horrible!! It's stressful because you have no clue on what's happening and then you can't get answers...