There's a target on your back, until you deal with all of your own problems. Mean seek out women that can be controlled., so it's wise to stay away from any relationship other than with females right now. Until you have a stronger sense of self, and that you can act immediately on red flags when they appear? Does that sound like something that you can commit to?
Secondly, it would be the best idea to take the suggestion, to inform your therapist everything that has happened. You need to know where this guy works, and lives, and go to the police and inform them that you have been physically abused by this man, and want nothing to do with him. Tell them that you have moved your dorm room, and have spoken to a therapist, and have informed campus security and b done with this. In some cases, the officers can go and talk with your X and inform him personally that you are through. and to cease and desist any further contact. If they can proceed with a protection order, i would do that too. Yes, it is frightening, but this is a dangerous man, and you need to do whatever it takes to protect yourself, even it that means to attend another college in another state.
you need to grow up before you start dating, anything other than group dates, during the day.
i hope you can find the strength to move on , don't worry about the pics or videos if there are any? your mental health is more important you have the power to take control of your own life good luck, dont give up you are important .
Sweetie, it is a bit of a mixed message to be calling him abusive and controlling and holding you hostage with some photos . . . and SO jealous and enraged that he's contacting his ex and may get a visit from her that you breach the boundary of calling her. It's confusing and am guessing you are confused inside. In patterns of abuse, it is often a dance that 'feels right' on some level to the abused. That's why they don't leave at the very first incident. Most women with healthy thinking are over and out as soon as an abusive red flag shows itself.
Women in this situation can repeat this pattern over and over. Maybe next time it will be an alcoholic, maybe next time it will be a full on physically violent, rageful person, maybe it will be someone that has you dependent on them for money and they give you very little rather than partnering with you to run finances together, etc. I so encourage you to seek some professional therapy about YOUR role in this abusive relationship.
From this post, I would say that you are indeed playing a role. This is NOT to blame you but to encourage you to reflect on what is going on and why you have conflicting feelings.
Does that make sense?
I do not know what happened to me and I acted in impulse. Of course the situation is still the same where my main concern is the pictures and being able to search for them and finishing the relationship. However, I still am human and cannot escape the feelings of insult and anger. In a time when i am suffering from anxiety, low self esteem and worthlessness, i am being made to believe that i am indeed worthless over and over again. I know i should not care of what he thinks and does but its hard to ignore someone treating you so bad. And i know i should not have read the message and ignored but it was just so "in my face" as soon as i opened messages to see if he has sent any images or videos, there it was, and so hard to ignore. Previous incidents I was able to calm down and handle rationally due to being on my own and meditating to calm down. However, this time he was present at the time of this discovery and I felt so worthless and acted upon my feelings. I know i should not care if his ex sees him and i should let her have him. However, helpless of avoiding the feeling of worthlessness which had angered me.
I will continue as normal and just see when the best opportunity is to leave and leave safely as possible.
Thank you all so much for your comments, it has been great to have people advise in a time when am feeling so alone. Thank you all once again.
You are creating your own problems. It's apparent.
"I need to try to get hold of his laptop and check and then try and finish this in the safest way possible for me. Can you advise on anything else I can do?"......................Have you COMPLETELY lost it? Are you crazy? Don't go near ANYTHING of this guy. DO NOT DO ANYTHING WITH HIS LAPTOP. You were supposed to look for pictures, not for messages from other women. To make matters worse you contacted the other woman and then told her not to tell him and then you ended up telling him. You made things way worse. FORGET about trying to find these pictures. You don't know if they even exist. You THINK that they MAY exist.
After reading this I am not sure if you are so innocent in all of this. Why would you be getting jealous of a MANIPULATING,CONTROLLING bf talking to another woman. It is if you LOVE the drama and you are trying to stay in this mess. You state you have anxiety issues, etc., but yet alone you created MORE drama? That makes ZERO sense.
You need to get yourself out of this PRONT!!!!!! YOU are out of control. You state you are "trapped," but nevertheless you keep drawing yourself deeper and deeper into this crap.
BTW: YOU cannot tell someone, e.g. your bf, who he may or may not invite to his home.
Let the EX have HIM. I would RECOMMEND you do that. Quit obsessing over this guy and get YOUR mental health together.
Very confused. You are angry about another women? I thought you were trying to get out of this?
Thank you for commenting. On searching for any pics or videos, or messages where he may have sent pics or videos to someone else. I discovered messages from his ex girlfriend planning a visit with her son and considering to share accommodation with him. I was in tiers again and so angry, I sent her a message indicating that I am his girlfriend and I find it unacceptable that she comes and shares accommodation. I mentioned at the end of the message that she should not mention of this message to my boyfriend, just to see what was happening and if she listens. However, instantly confronted my boyfriend of the fact that I have discovered the messages and I have sent a reply. He shouted at me and told me to never go through his phone again and said that she was going to stay at a hotel and not at his house.. As suspected although I mentioned in the message for her to not tell my boyfriend, she called and discussed my message and demanded to speak to me on which i refused as she was abusive and rude . She shouted pure abuse and swore continuously on which he did not even stand up or defend me. I was heart broken once again over and over again. When i demanded out of anger that he calls back to defend me which he should have done anyway. He started shouting at me and saying that i should not "****" him off anymore by doing such things and that I don't know who he really is and what he is capable of. I told him that this is not on and i will not tolerate it, on which he asked me what I would do, "call the police, I don't think you know me at all yet". I was frightened to death and apologized told him i will not do such a thing again and asked if we were ok. I AM TRAPPED, TRAPPED!! I have no idea what to do?
I need to try to get hold of his laptop and check and then try and finish this in the safest way possible for me. Can you advise on anything else I can do?
Thank you for commenting. On searching for any pics or videos, or messages where he may have sent pics or videos to someone else. I discovered messages from his ex girlfriend planning a visit with her son and considering to share accommodation with him. I was in tiers again and so angry, I sent her a message indicating that I am his girlfriend and I find it unacceptable that she comes and shares accommodation. I mentioned at the end of the message that she should not mention of this message to my boyfriend, just to see what was happening and if she listens. However, instantly confronted my boyfriend of the fact that I have discovered the messages and I have sent a reply. He shouted at me and told me to never go through his phone again and said that she was going to stay at a hotel and not at his house.. As suspected although I mentioned in the message for her to not tell my boyfriend, she called and discussed my message and demanded to speak to me on which i refused as she was abusive and rude . She shouted pure abuse and swore continuously on which he did not even stand up or defend me. I was heart broken once again over and over again. When i demanded out of anger that he calls back to defend me which he should have done anyway. He started shouting at me and saying that i should not "****" him off anymore by doing such things and that I don't know who he really is and what he is capable of. I told him that this is not on and i will not tolerate it, on which he asked me what I would do, "call the police, I don't think you know me at all yet". I was frightened to death and apologized told him i will not do such a thing again and asked if we were ok. I AM TRAPPED, TRAPPED!! I have no idea what to do?
I need to try to get hold of his laptop and check and then try and finish this in the safest way possible for me. Can you advise on anything else I can do?
Thank you for commenting. On searching for any pics or videos, or messages where he may have sent pics or videos to someone else. I discovered messages from his ex girlfriend planning a visit with her son and considering to share accommodation with him. I was in tiers again and so angry, I sent her a message indicating that I am his girlfriend and I find it unacceptable that she comes and shares accommodation. I mentioned at the end of the message that she should not mention of this message to my boyfriend, just to see what was happening and if she listens. However, instantly confronted my boyfriend of the fact that I have discovered the messages and I have sent a reply. He shouted at me and told me to never go through his phone again and said that she was going to stay at a hotel and not at his house.. As suspected although I mentioned in the message for her to not tell my boyfriend, she called and discussed my message and demanded to speak to me on which i refused as she was abusive and rude . She shouted pure abuse and swore continuously on which he did not even stand up or defend me. I was heart broken once again over and over again. When i demanded out of anger that he calls back to defend me which he should have done anyway. He started shouting at me and saying that i should not "****" him off anymore by doing such things and that I don't know who he really is and what he is capable of. I told him that this is not on and i will not tolerate it, on which he asked me what I would do, "call the police, I don't think you know me at all yet". I was frightened to death and apologized told him i will not do such a thing again and asked if we were ok. I AM TRAPPED, TRAPPED!! I have no idea what to do?
I need to try to get hold of his laptop and check and then try and finish this in the safest way possible for me. Can you advise on anything else I can do?
Thank you for commenting. I have tried just to do that, to gain access and delete things if he has got anything. I managed to get hold of his phone but not his laptop. On searching for any pics or videos, or messages where he may have sent pics or videos to someone else. I discovered messages from his ex girlfriend planning a visit with her son and considering to share accommodation with him. I was in tiers again and so angry, I sent her a message indicating that I am his girlfriend and I find it unacceptable that she comes and shares accommodation. I mentioned at the end of the message that she should not mention of this message to my boyfriend, just to see what was happening and if she listens. However, instantly confronted my boyfriend of the fact that I have discovered the messages and I have sent a reply. He shouted at me and told me to never go through his phone again and said that she was going to stay at a hotel and not at his house.. As suspected although I mentioned in the message for her to not tell my boyfriend, she called and discussed my message and demanded to speak to me on which i refused as she was abusive and rude . She shouted pure abuse and swore continuously on which he did not even stand up or defend me. I was heart broken once again over and over again. When i demanded out of anger that he calls back to defend me which he should have done anyway. He started shouting at me and saying that i should not "****" him off anymore by doing such things and that I don't know who he really is and what he is capable of. I told him that this is not on and i will not tolerate it, on which he asked me what I would do, "call the police, I don't think you know me at all yet". I was frightened to death and apologized told him i will not do such a thing again and asked if we were ok. I AM TRAPPED, TRAPPED!! I have no idea what to do?
I need to try to get hold of his laptop and check and then try and finish this in the safest way possible for me. Can you advise on anything else I can do?
I totally understand your terror, as I spent 2 years of my young life with an abusive partner. That is why you need him out of your life, NOW, FAST, and no looking back. I hate the prase 'weak minded' - it implies a lack of courage to get things done, and I don't believe that about you. Please, move to a new dorm if you must. And when you see him coming, RUN. No phone calls, e-mails, facebook, ZERO. Let campus security know he is a problem. Then move on with your young and blooming LIFE. :)
Thank you for commenting. I am aware that he is ruining my life my self respect, livelihood and the will to live. But I am terrified of this happening to me, I feel it will leave me suicidal as i am very mentally weak in the first place.
I will be discussing with my counselor in my next appointment which i am waiting for at the moment. I am suffering from many problems with self confidence, anxiety and panic attacks and my therapist was appointed due to these reasons. As i am a weak personality at the moment and am suffering from these issues at first I felt it was my fault. I felt that I need to deal with myself then maybe my relationship will get better, I felt that because i cannot stand up for myself this is why i am getting pushed over. I give in and submit to what ever he says, he indirectly controls me with guilt, but at the same time will not let me go.
I am really really scared of him having these pics and sharing them on the internet! I am a weak person and feel that it will leave me suicidal. I am really confused. If he gets violent again i will have to build courage to call the police, but even that i am scared of as this will anger him and again he can release any pics or videos.
Well, you seem pretty comfortable with his computer - invite him over, and when he goes to sleep get on his lap top and wipe out his skye history. It's apparently saved automatically for 30 days, but after that, you can set it to save conversations longer.
Clean it out.
Ugh, very sorry you find yourself in this situation. Okay, worst case scenario, he has pictures. you'd be one of about of gazillion girls that have this happen to them and you'll live through that. But you won't live through an abusive boyfriend. He needs to stay away and OUT of your life. Tell your parents and the school and yes, law enforcement if need be.
I had someone stalking me. An ex boyfriend. I called him and asked if he was listening and to understand I was tape recording the conversation. I then told him that this was record of me telling him that I want nothing to do with him and if he comes near me again, he is doing so against my wishes, does he hear me saying this to him. I then told him that I would present this to the police I need be. He left me alone.
This adult man is blackmailing you. Ridiculous. Don't let him. good luck
Yes - go to your local courthouse and get a restraining order against this monster. He is WRECKING your life. He does not show any sympathy/support for your struggles with anxiety. And, the guy is flat-out DANGEROUS. He should not be permitted on your campus at all. And you DESERVE the same freedoms everyone else does, to have friends and socialize. Please, for your own life - remove this maniac from it.
He may or may not have pics.....hopefully he doesn't.
No judgement here; I was just trying to get clarity about the situation with the pictures.
CUT THIS OFF NOW for your own sake. Get authorities involved if need be.
"I have not yet discussed with my therapist as i was more focusing on my self confidence issues and social anxiety with her but plan on doing so in my next appointment."................Hon, this situation trumps EVERYTHING else at this time. It is destroying your life. Get an appointment soon as possible and make this the ONLY thing you discuss with your therapist. He/she needs to help you sort this out ASAP.
This guy sounds like he is spinning out of control...............time bomb.
I know but I feel so trapped!
I have not yet discussed with my therapist as i was more focusing on my self confidence issues and social anxiety with her but plan on doing so in my next appointment.
I will have to learn how to control the guilt aspect.
I have not sent him any, however please do not judge me, I know it was a really irresponsible and bad thing to do. But we have masturbated with each other over skype. And i am now worried he will have it recorded or have taken snapshots.
Hon, this man is ruining your life.
Have you discussed this situation with your therapist at all?
The guilt is coming from you. You can only make yourself feel guilty.
Did you send him intimate pics and/or allow yourself to be photographed in an explicit manner? You should know this.
Hi, Thank your for commenting.
I am not certain if he has any pictures, but i have a strong feeling he may have due to his perverted nature which i have now discovered.
The party was at the start of university, shortly after freshers week, when every student is friendly and looking to make friends. I met some students at the start before my boyfriend started behaving this way. And made some new friends, however they did not remain as I was not allowed to socialize without being made felt guilty for going out.
He is a software developer and only needs his laptop to work. He is self employed, through his own company and offers his service through contracts to other companies. Meaning that he only has to carry his laptop everywhere and that is all. He does attend a few days at the company but varies, depending on the company type. So went ever he would come to see me he was not losing out as he would continue his work on his laptop.
I am currently seeing a counselor on campus at university to over come my social anxiety and self confidence issues.
Are you certain or not he has these intimate pics?
He is a "28 year-old successful businessman" but has time for all this nonsense?
You mentioned you went to a party a friend was having, but then you state you have no friends? Do you have any support group whatsoever? Why can't you see your own parents?
He is a ticking time bomb and you REALLY, REALLY need to separate yourself from him. Leave him and get the authorities involved if needed.
Are you seeing a therapist for your issues? If not, find one PRONTO! I am sure the campus can help you out with that.