Yes I am, and I apologize for my writeing style. I was trying to make it brief as possible, rather than makeing into some type of novel.
I have no disapointment with my child, none at all. If anyhting admiration, love and pride. He is one of the reasons I am here. Actually pretty much the reason. I can not bare the thought of having a child "somewhere" out there.
Also in a way, the writeing style does represent me.... What I mean is, I try to disjoin myself emotionally when I think about my situation. I just blow it off and carry on.
My wife is even looking for a job for me that would require me to live in an apt without her and my boy! The job location to too far from where we live, and my boy is not going to be raised in an area of nothing but traffic, cars, pollution and cement. So I would have to sleep at an apt, maybe 2-3 nights a week. I mean, how does one read these signals. Do I read them as, I don't love you, We are no longer WE, go get you a minor wife...? Even my mother-in-law tells me to get a " F - buddy" for a lack of a better translation. I think my mother-in-law is a minor wife herself. It is so complicated, and this family is upper class, this type of behavior is condoned at all levels within this society it seems.
I just can't do this unless my wife seriosly says... "It is OK to live together, and you have a misstress...." I mean make it official or something because I don't like to live like this. Also here, the minor wife, does not even mind being a minor wife.... it beats nothing at all in their view. Weird for me to comprehend.
Any how, yes this situation is real and I am living it & I stand to loose a fortune, and my parents are concerned because I also stand to inherit a lot of money through them. They do not want to see their money go up in smoke.
Could you possibly use words like "I", and "my wife"?
You sound completely, and absolutely disjointed from your wife, your child, and your situation. Maybe that's the problem? Your post is bizarre, and I can't imagine my husband writing about me in those terms.
Could you possible re-write this in terms like "I married an Asian woman, now she's gone back to her family, and won't have sex with me, and I don't even know the language, etc.".
Are you actually talking about your own life situation here?