No problem. I used to dream of the family house where I grew up, which was a lovely house and more special where I was living later, but mostly I was dreaming of the old days when I was a kid and teenager, before my parents split up. It was YEARS before I stopped dreaming sadly that we were all at the old family house but had to leave because the new owners were going to come back. Interestingly, it was not until my husband and I renovated our own (real) house and we had a son, that those sad dreams stopped. Sometimes nostalgia is so strong that it takes big satisfactions to overcome. :) [If you're curious, click on my username and in my photos there is a little corner of our refurbished farmhouse -- it's a picture featuring a black & white cat on a porch. As you can see, it took a lot to make me stop dreaming nostalgically of the good old family manse and all it represented.]
Thank you for your response. What you said makes sense. He was my biggest love before I met my husband. My husband is actually the best thing that's ever happened to me. Before him it was nothing but betrayals and disappointments as you said. I would never even consider the idea of being with my ex again. My husband meets all my needs and loves me like crazy.
My ex was actually not nearly as affectionate as my husband is. But I agree with what you said. It was happier times from my youth with him. I'll take that.
Thank you!!
It just means you are remembering happier days of your youth, when everything was sweet and before you and the subsequent betrayals and disappointments and need to grow up had not happened yet. It's like listening to rock from when you were about 14, and feeling like back then every day was summer and happy and new. Just don't let your reveries serve you the illusion that things would be that way if you got together with Mister Cheater again. You have it better now, even if your husband is not acting like a new boyfriend.