Hello,
Please bear with me as I talk about this story. Summer of 2021 in June I met a girl even though I'm married and have a wife. I thought this girl was great and she was married as well had kids and seemed to understand my situation in the home. She always used to post things about "the come back is always greater than the set back" on her snapchat feeds. I also noticed that she immediately after 2 weeks told me she loved me. I knew full and well that this was not true at all. I played along. She always seemed overly sexual and she went down on me a few times but I never performed any oral sex on her. I did not even want to have sex with her but she mildly assaulted me in the car one time by straddling me and putting me inside her without a condom on. I was in there for about 2 minutes and I kept telling her to get off. I didnt throw her off because I didn't want to hurt her. She eventually stopped after 2 minutes after I shook her and told her to stop. This was at the end of July. This was also the first time we had sex. Then she started acting weird, and started threatening me in the coming months regarding telling my wife about us and I told her that its over because she's crazy and her behavior is unwarranted. Whenever I asked her if she was clean, she always said she was clean and never had an STD in her life. She also started getting mad when I told her i'd get checked and show her if she could do the same for me. She said I was weird to ask her that. Then on october 21st, I had sex with her in the car again unprotected for literally 2 minutes but I was so guilty that I stopped. I did ejaculate very little but outside of her. I asked her again if she was clean and she lost it. Started threatening me again. A month later of her texting me regardless of me telling her to stop, she tells me she is pregnant. That its mine, and that its twins. I knew it was a lie, and that she went to planned parenthood to get the baby aborted. Long story short, last thing she said to me was "i'm going to be a nightmare to you".
My symptoms are as follows. Right after our encounter in october, I got so paranoid based off of her reaction, My genitals, balls, kept stinging. They were achy. I was itching my butt area, but more so than the itching, it was like my anus was aching. I went to the doctor on oct 25th and he did chlamydia, gon, hiv tests and it was all negative. urinalysis was negative. About a month and a half later I got tested for all hepatitis. It was all negative. I also got another HIV test in november, one in december, one in january and one in february. They were all negative. The symptoms went away, my doc said I had nothing. Then one day I noticed a small piece of string looking fleshy thing in my groin. It was sent to the lab in january 11th and pathology report came back as "suggestive of condyloma". I was depressed. This was HPV. Then I went to a dermatologist who looked at the genital area, I had no other "warts" nothing there, and he said "you have nothing, your problem is in your head not your body". He sent the pathology slide to a dermatopathologist, who looked at it with 2 other pathologists, who all said it was just a SKIN TAG, and ammended the report. So now I dont have HPV.
At the end of January 31st, I got a cystoscopy done, and the urologist saw nothing of concern because I told him HPV and herpes was my concern. I got an IGG test done in january as well, I was positive for HSV-1 and negative for HSV-2.
After this I have never been the same. I noticed a small purplish red dot on my scrotum, which the physicians said is a blood vessel. But in my mind, I never saw that before. I sometimes still get an achy feeling at the base. I've never had any breakouts, any lesions nothing. Now I get scared about every little thing. I saw black dots on my thumb, and every doctor i've show says its nothing, but in my mind its like, "i never had these before so why now". Im truly terrified. my left thumb is burning on and off, my feet sometimes gets a pin like pain, my left index finger gets a pin like pain too but theres nothing there. I do not know what is wrong with me and what more I can get tested for.
Someone please help me. Point me in the right direction. I'm literally watching myself deteriorate. I don't even touch my child because i'm scared to give her something. I have lost all quality of life.