I think I have one or more STD's, but certain there's atleast one. Bad predicament.

[InShambles]

I've lived a bad life over the last year and a half, pretty much having casual sex with people. Ranging from male to females. I was in a terrible state of mind where I didn't all care for life much. I always used protection though when it came to vaginal and anal intercourse (me being penetrated). Some sexual oral encounters were without protection. I'm scared now. I'm 21 and have no health insurance at all. I haven't got tested yet, but I'm certain I have something, because these bump like lesions appeared around my rectum area a couple months back. I live with my mother currently, but am not exactly stable here. I have a due date for MEPS to join the military next week, and my mother has been thrilled I made the decision to join, but not until just recently did I know you could even get disqualified for having an STD, depending on it's magnitude. Mine is more certainly visible and would be found during the physical. She's still under the impression I'm going and I don't want to let her down, but I just know it's not going to happened. I'm planning on just telling her what's my problem before even going to the exam, as I'm positive I'll fail. My biggest fear is just seeing the look on her face and having so many different emotions. She'll never trust me again. I'm sure she would try to get me help for this, but the problem is I have no health insurance and I already have so many outstanding medical bills. Not to mention the mental toll it'll put on her. I'm probably end up going live with m y father after it's all said and done. How do I go about this in a situation that would cause the least amount of pain for me and her? Please, no judgments. I'm about to wreak the consequences of my actions in due time. I just want a little support. I've been sitting down for the past two days just contemplating the unimaginable process this will be.

[Life360_Dave]

As Vance says, just get checked out to know for sure.

[InShambles]

Here's how I come to rationalize this. I've received oral to my penis a few times without protection, but there are no signs of having genital warts on my penis at all and it's been well over three months since I've had a sexual encounter with anyone. I've had these bumps around my anal area around maybe 2 months, but not certain exactly when I first discovered it.

[Life360_Dave]

That all the classic symptoms. The blood, the itching all classic signs.

[Vance2335]

Don't put the cart before the horse. You need to be seen by a Dr, get some testing done before you know anything.

[InShambles]

Hi. Thanks for responding. How would I be certain, though? It itches at times and there is signs of blood when I wipe very rarely. The bummer is, hemorrhoids still disqualifys me from joining. Just a buzz kill all the way around.

[Life360_Dave]

Hi. Sounds like Hemorrhoids if they are really close it the anus opening.