I'm a 19 year old male and it seems my sexual fantasies (or rather FANTASY) are taking myself over. You see, I have a fetish for tickling. I constantly think about it with girls combined. And yes, I sometimes fantasise about me getting tickled by attractive girls like most guys would do with this fetish. Makes me kinda guilty that I'm objectifying women that way.....
I also have the desperate need to go on fetish websites and search for videos involving tickling and when seeing ones with guys getting tickled by girls, it frustrates me and makes me envious, even though it was just a video. It makes me masturbate frustratingly over and over again until I get exhausted.
I really want my fantasy to be fulfilled so I no longer have to look at these videos and be jealous. What should I do?