inneedofhelp

[Jaquta]

Hi
I hope you make it home today and that the therapy is going well.

[Jaquta]

I'm fine.  Your partner could get into big trouble for doing that even if it was only intended to shock you.  It was a very dumb thing for him to do and say.
I think you should be in hospital.  I think that your partner should be in therapy and anger management, if not jail.  I think your children should probably be in care (maybe even with your parents on a short-term basis).
I don't think what any or you is currently doing is working.

Not that my life's working for me either.

I hope respite goes well.  I hope they do hospitalize you (I think -not sure).  I wish life were easy to reform.

Take care and best wishes.

[inneedofhelp82]

I am back in that place i stayed only i am in as an alternative to hospital, i wanted to kill myself yesterday and my partner found me he was supposed to call the police but he didn't, i rang my therapist and social worker and they were busy so i just left, my therapist rang looking for me and told my partner to ring the police. Anyway long story short, my partner tried to kill me he drove into me and put me of the road then he threatened to kill me and then he drove really fast saying he was going to kill both of us.
My therapist was going to admit me to hospital against my will, but then he said i could go to the other place, if they hadn't had a bed i would have had to go to hospital, not good but the staff have been very nice and i have come home for while to shower and get clothes and see my children. My partner is so angry at me.
How are you? I have to stay there until Monday then my therapist will decide what to do next. I hope all is well with you. Take care

[Jaquta]

Things do improve then you can feel like you have gone backwards and then you move forward again.  Sometimes progress is slow, sometimes it is faster.
It's just like weight lose sometimes.  You lose weight, you plateau, you can even put on weight.  It's all part of the process.

[inneedofhelp82]

I am so going mad, my mood had dropped again, now i am struggling i feel i need to get away, i thought ok i had a few good days i am improving moving forward but no, obviously not. I am thinking of getting in the car and going but i don't know, i need to be sure because if it doesn't go right i have to come back to this.

[Jaquta]

You too.  I'm glad therapy went OK.

[inneedofhelp82]

Yeah i was up until 3am i was so anxious. Therapy went ok i was alot more open and told him things i never have about certain thoughts i have. I also told him i keep a diary when i am feeling suicidal he asked could he see it, i don't know its very personal and it says some stuff about him. I got my certificate tonight for the course i was doing and i passed it, i felt sad saying goodbye to everyone. I am very anxious and panicky today which disappoints me, when my mood lifts then i panic more, one is as bad as the other. I walked today again and it was warm which wasn't good but i enjoyed it anyway.
I am glad the medication is working and i hope you feel alot better soon. Have a good day. Take care