i dont know who i am

[cant_take_it]

idk if im depresed or just sad or somthing im a 17 year old boy i feel as if i have no one to talk to even though i have a loving family and friends i feel no one really cares about my problems. i feel eveeryone is always trying to keep me down. its hard to keep all these feelings in and feel sometimes i just cant take the stress of school and trying to make friends  im shy so people tend to stay away from me i have some friends but i feel myself getting more and more distant every day. i have never had anyone where i can just open my mind and let everything out. starting to wonder what my purpose in life is if no one will reallly listin to what i have to say but idk maybe im over reacting.  also i dont want to see a therapist or anything like that......  sorry if some of this dosent make sense

[azuza]

I know that at some point in every person's life, they question their purpose. Since fourth grade, I've suffered every day with chronic migraines. It's been over eight years now. I'm home schooled, because the pain is way too much to handle for six hours at the public school. So, please trust me when I say: "I know what lonely feels like." It's absolutely overwhelming.
There have been times where I've wanted to throw in the towel. But I pulled through. And, you might not be a person of faith, so please forgive me if this makes you uncomfortable - but  honestly for me, it was always God that pulled me back out of depression.
But I also found other ways to vent, when no one would listen or understand what I was feeling. I wrote in my journal, and played music. I watched a really funny favorite movie, and treated myself. I did the things that made me truly happy:]  
Have hope. Stay strong. You have a purpose. It might take time to find it, but never ever ever give up<3

[cant_take_it]

My dad left when I was very young   A few days after or before my 3rd birth day   Me and my brother used to go see him every summer but my bro and dad got in a fight so now it's just me that goes and now I have to go every christmass to. I don't think it's truely traumatizing though. And I try and block out stupid mistakes I made but it's kinda hard when I see the person I wronged every day. Don't know if she cares any more but I don't know if I should apologize or if it's not a big deal I would just feel stupid  

[mandapanda928]

This does make sense i used to feel like that in school and it does sound like some depression and social anxiety maybe. Since you don't want to see a therapist maybe you should talk to your parents or a regular doctor . And you do have a big purpose in life your friends your family when i get depressed it really helps to realize your going to be OK. NO MATTER WHAT. I'm sure they do care about your problems maybe they just don't understand. Try to keep from getting distant and try to stay strong. And don't let people keep you down learn to love yourself and that's a huge step. Did you have any kind of trauma in your childhood happen? and do you block things out?