Yeah I know, just tryinging to weigh it up :(
Thank you :)
I think, your boyfriend does not make you happy! I was in a relationship for 2 years and we reached a point where we just didnt get along so well anymore. It ended up being too much of a struggle to trust eachother, and the happy moments kept getting faker and faker. It was really hard because he was my absolute best friend, but we knew our relationship had become more of a pain than a happy one. The point of a boyfriend is to have someone by your side who give you confidence, to laugh with, to trust, to feel good. It doesnt sound like you are happy! I cant tell you what to do, but I can tell you from my experience that when my boyfriend and I broke up at first I was devistated...but then I realized how much more I was laughing,....and how much more I smiled, and how much more confidence I got and how much more happy I was all together. You have to decide whether this relationship is worth all this trouble! Relationships are super messy...but to me it seems like these depression symptoms are seriously stemming from your relationship. Maybe talk to a therapist, they are great non judgemental people to talk to. good luck!