Help! I think that I am seriously depressed...

[Becca7297]

Hey, I am 15 years old and I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't have many friends, but the ones that I have are great. Throughout middle school everything was worse and I had no friends. or anything like that. Even though I have some friends now I feel so alone and like there is just nothing left anymore. Recently I have been very irritated at things. Like every little thing just irks me, like my mom, or sounds. I have also been feeling depressed, sad and useless for the past couple of years. Everyday I think about dying, but some days I am okay until the afternoon, then start thinking about dying. I have harmed my self for a while now, not cutting my wrist or anything, just making marks on my arm. Sorry if this is sad or whatever, i just don't have anyone I can tell all of this too. I think that if I say something wrong then everyone will hate me, or act how I act at home at school. I just feel so useless, like everything I do or say is wrong. I also hate myself, everything I say, how I speak, how I do things, just everything. Sorry if I repeat myself I just don't know what to say. I have contemplated suicide one too many times like cutting myself, jumping, or taking a bottle of pills. I am just tired of feeling this way, and I am afraid soon I just might end it all.

[Becca7297]

ThanK you, I really appreciate it.

[julieah]

I understand all you're saying. I'm 16, and it's been like that most of my life as well. Never told anyone...

[AngieWay15]

I know exactly what you are going through. I am 15, depressed, and self-harm.  If you ever want to talk, please send me a message, I'm Angie.

[lee222164]

Sweetie you are 15 and you have your whole life ahead of you. I do not know what your life is at home . but I can tell you this that your mom is your only best friend and if anyone can help you get through any problems you are having its your mom. All you have to do is open up to her  and tell her what is bothering you , Be honest with her, and yes she will understand anything you tell her.You cannot go on hurting yourself like this. She will seek out the right people to help you. I am a mother of 3 girls my oldest is 34 my middle is 30 and my baby is 21.and it was not easy raising  three girls on my own..But I can tell you this that if you tell your mother she will help you get to the right place for help. I went through the same thing with my 21 yr old when she was 15, but I never gave up on her. I got her the help she needed. Today I'm a proud mom of a soon to be Marine. Please take my advice and talk to your mom or to your counsler at school. Stay in touch with me.   Good Luck Becca