i don't know where to start ...............

[moody119]

1 ) my dad is dead he die from cancer . he had cancer nine years before he died. i was going to 13 when he paseed he got cancer when i was 4.
2) i found out that my dad wasen't in my life for the first two years of my life.
3) when i was five my mum and dad start phyiscally fighting in front of me ( broken knoes lamps over heads kniefs in mounth and teeth knocked out. this stopped happening when i 12
dad got very sick.
4) mum was cheating on dad for about a year and i told him lies for a year before he died. i regert lying but not to him i loved him and never wanted to lie but mum gave me no choice.
5) then she hitting me got worse
6) things started getting strange when i woke up to her boyfriend on top of my cover humping like as if he was on a horse
7) i told my school and they didn't help
8) i left my mum
9) i am living with my dad's mum now and things are ok

i think i am depressed and iu want to get help but my nanny doen't believe in couselliing so i can't go counselling . socical works no help
so give me some advice please.

[Tinabudde]

It sounds like you really need to talk to someone.  What about someone at school maybe a trusted teacher or if you go to church your minister?  Sometimes you can sign up with a big brother/sister program and your sister can be a big help to you to talk to and guide you.  

[trdofbeingtrd]

If you are under 18 and this is for real (no offense), then you need to call the officers/CPS. I am guessing you are not in the U.S.

I am going to get someone here to talk to you. I don't know exactly the correct procedures for these things but that sicko needs to stay away from you and your mom needs to stop hitting you. I will try to get the Moderator of this category.