I don't know what to do

[Sisterluv]

I'm usually a really confident person and whenever I don't feel confident when I'm around other people I hide it. My self esteem is drastically decreasing and i don't understand why and what to do. People say I'm pretty and my bf says I'm beautiful but I don't think so. There are only certain times I feel beautiful. My weight is a factor too. I'm not morbidly obese but i have thick thighs and pretty big boobs and a butt and everything. All I see is a fat person whenever I look at myself and whenever I think off self I think of ugly and fat and just completely unattractive. All I do is cry about it now. I'm always looking at prettier girls than me and I'm always looking at my bfs ex and she's not gorgeous but idk I just think she's prettier than me. Idk what's wrong with me.

[Sisterluv]

Thanks so much. I do really try to not think about that and just focus on me but I get compared to other people a lot. Not only when it comes to looks but personality wise and success wise. It hurts very much. It's also gotten so bad that it's driven me away from my family a little. I do have quite a bit of an anger/attitude issue and it's made that much worse too. My father thinks I'm anti social cuz I'm so caught up in the emotions and mental part of everything that I don't socialize as much anymore.

[Applecore]

First of all, everybody at times feels less than confident when around other people that seem to be prettier or more talented than us.  The answer to that is to know that there will always be somebody like that and to accept it.  We only need to do the very best that we can and to accept how God made us and to know that we are adequate.  My friend who is a drug-alcohol abuse counselor says when someone gives you a compliment, take you hand on you chest and rub it in.  Receive it.  We all have what we call flaws in our build, either on the outside or on the inside.  Learn to dress appropriately and let people see the beautiful inside of you.  My mom used to tell me I was beautiful on the inside.  I wanted to be beautiful on the outside.  I now know the inside is so important.  It makes the outside beautiful.  People don't notice your "flaws" until you mention them.  It sounds like you get many compliments on your beauty.  Accept them and try not to compare yourself with somebody else.  Enjoy who you are and the unique person that God made you.  We don't all have to be movie star quality to be "beautiful".  Please love yourself and enjoy yourself.