What should I do? I think I'm depressed.

[liveforever]

         I'm a seventeen year old girl and I think I might be depressed. I don't do drugs or drink any alcohol, and I don't cut myself. I am a fairly popular kid in highschool. I used to think I was normal, but I just realised today that I haven't been acting like myself lately. My grades have dropped (I used to get 90's, now I barely get 70's) because I have trouble concentrating. I have been feeling angry and have had many mood swings that my friends and family have noticed. I cry myself to sleep for absolutely no reason. I often feel very sad. I'm not suicidal, however I have thought about it (just of what would happen, not of actually commiting it). I don't go out anymore, I barely call or text my friends, and I have been a little unsociable lately. I used to want to apply to a very competitive college but now I don't think I'm smart enough. The activities I used to enjoy I avoid now. I was at a concert a week ago, one that I have been dreaming to go to all my life, because they're British and never come to the US, and while in line, I seriously thought about just going home and sleeping. I also have noticed that my sleeping habits have changed, I can barely sleep. My eating habits haven't changed much; I used to be really thin, and I have gained ten pounds, but I think that is really normal, you can't even tell I gained weight. I've been feeling really sad, and thought that the whole world has been bleak and lifeless. I feel like the world is experiencing a great depression, however when I asked someone about if they remember being happier a year ago, they replied that they feel the same.

I do not want to admit to my family that I am feeling depressed, because I think they will feel like I want attention. That's the opposite of what I want. I have been trying to hide my feelings as much as possible but aparently it's not working because people have noticed I don't act like I did before.

However, that being said, I'm not sulking around 24/7, I do go to work, and have conversations with people. So what should I do? Should I try to see if it wears off? I don't really think it is that important or serious to see a doctor or go on medication. Is there a way to cure it by myself? I don't really want anyone to know that I am depressed unless I need to. Also therapy wont work; I'm just not that type of person.

[nonicknameformelol]

People with depression can't help that they feel that way, yes you have ways to try to avoid it but it's not something that they chose. Ok so other people have it worse than them, they get that and they probably feel even more worse that they feel this way when they know someone else has it worse. Everyone is different and has different personalties or outlooks in life, yours may not be as negative as others but that's YOU not THEM.                                    Telling a depressed person to suck it up or cheer up is like telling someone with cancer to find themselves a cure. Depression is a mental illness. Just like as if you broke your leg or you got ill, you would have help to get better and that's the same with depression although you don't see the pain that people are in. Which is why people who don't have it can't understand why they would feel that way.  I'm 14 and I'm depressed, i act as the most happiest person at school even when i have really crap days because I don't want anyone to notice the depression, i don't want to be judge because as soon as someone hears the world 'mental illness' people assume you are crazy. You can never fully understand something unless you have been in that situation, trust me. Before I had depression I used to think 'what have they got to be unhappy about etc' but then i soon realised when I had it for myself. It's not a nice thing and I'm glad you don't feel this way but there is no need to say it's 'pathetic' and tell people to 'suck it up pussies'... This is a page for people with depression to discuss their issues and reply to the question above, if you're not depressed then you can f*** off and do something else better with your time. ****

[Guitarshredder4]

I feel exactly the same as all of you. Mikmik42 is right you should seek out god, especially during bad times. But I'm depressed now from many of the same things. School is stressful enough but plus all of the popular kids just make it worse. My family is crazy it's just horrible. I feel like i'm missing something, my life just seems boring and dull. I remember when i was younger how I didn't worry so much but now this is all I do. My parents put more stress on me. What i've been trying to do is things i've found on the internet. I play guitar so i play in jazz band and i'm forming my own band. I go to a gym to work out. I use all that anger and i put to working out. Even though i'm very skinny i try to eat very healthy this can effect you're mood a lot. Be social. I've always been a great person to make friends, it was very easy for me but now i just hate talking to people. I have to force myself. You should try to be social. Get outside, the fresh air can really improve your mood. Even though i do all this i'm still depressed. When i was just 10 i was diagnosed with epilepsy and ever since then i've been horribly depressed. Now i'm 13 almost 14 and I've had enough. I've always had this anger at something, im not sure what i'm angry at. Sometimes i could punch a hole in a wall i get so pissed off! Ever since iv'e been diagnosed iv'e been angry at this world, i'm not sure what though. I've been to therapy, it didn't help, it just made it worse, all they want is your money. I don't even know why i'm posting here i'm just very confused and depressed.

[DanUR]

I'm a 16 year old boy. And i think i suffer from depression. I don't do things to hurt my body, but i just feel sad all the time. Sometimes I'm really happy and just the next moment I'm sad. I can't talk to my parents about it. I tried once but they didn't believe me. I can't sleep much at night, i can't concentrate and i feel like crying all the time. I feel worthless and useless like I'm the only one on earth who doesn't have a talent/purpose. I must say I've been bullied a lot when i was younger. I've shut myself out from the world. I don't talk much and i don't go out much. I prefer being by myself at places where no one can bother me. The only thing keeping me going is the thought that it will be alright one day. But the day doesn't seem to come. I just wanted to say that you all are not alone, we have these problems but the solusion is not to commit suicide! Hold on.. Talk to people with the same problems.

[kayleighjade]

Im 17 and i think im depressed i have been feeling like this for over 2 years now and i have tried to committ suicide and i went to hospital for a few days and said that i would never try and do it again because of how painful it was but i lied i do keep thinking about doing it again and for the past few months it has been getting worse i cry all the time but i just blame it on my time of the month im angry all the time i snap at people for no reason i want to break things and scream at the top of lungs! I am a huge drama nerd and i love singing but everytime someone mentions drama or singing i get really stressed and get angry! I have recently joined 6th form and this is mainly where all my stress has come from! I am really quite dumb and havent got good grades in my GCSE's so i have to redo some but i just dont have any motivation to do anything because im so lazy! People at my school dont really notice my behaviour anymore because ive been like this for over 2 years now ever since i tried to committ suicide i rarely speak about my attempted suicide but ever since then i feel so unloved by my friend and family! My mum has a fiance that shes always with my father just seems to forget about me and he always makes me feel guilty about things i shouldnt feel guilty about and whenever i try and talk to somebody about how i feel they never listen or understand they just say yeah and then change the subject!

[MissAthena]

I'm 13 and I just havent been... Normal lately. I yell a lot and I just cry when ever im alone. I dont want to tell my parents that i THINK i'm depressed. I think it will just make things work. My dad is a phsyciatrist and I just dont want to talk to him about it. I was going through my documents on my computer and there was a lot saying "I wish I woulkd just get up the courage to kill myself. I'm just wasting peoples time, and taking up space." I dont know why... but thats how I feel. I have been having physical pain in my side sometimes is that the cause? Please help me.

[CoolUsername]

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