I am majorly depressed?

[Mk0317]

Im 15, and i think i might be majorly depressed. My step raped me for 4 years, and ever since that happened, i havent been the same. i finally "grew some balls" and told the police about my step dad, he's been in jail for 8 months now and i still to this day have horrible nightmares about him..... then i found out my best friend in the whole entire world was getting raped by her biological dad for about as long as i was by my step dad, and i convinced her to tell the cops on him about a month and a half ago...... my nightmares have big time worsened... and that best friend had to move away.... she moved to a whole other state :( ive been litterally having mental break downs since she left....... she was the only on holding me together..... now i barely get to talk to her... i havent gone to school in 2 weeks cuz im soo torn apart by this whole thing......... i cry like a million times a day, only leave my room to use the restroom and get food, and to get the phone to call her..... ive been wanting to cut again sooo bad.... but everytime i even think about cutting or killing my self, i think of her... im an emotional wreck without her........ I DONT KNO WHAT TO DO!!!!!! SOMEONE HELP ME!!!!!!

[ku111]

Sorry.  I was so amazed by you I forgot to say that I think counseling would do you so much good.  It would be really nice for you to have someone to talk to and help you through all of this.  Wish you the best!

[ku111]

I will start off by saying how very proud of you I am!  You are a very strong and smart girl!  In fact, you are amazing!  You spoke up and let yourself be heard.  So many people never say anything and the fear holds them up in life for years and sometimes forever.  Not only did you help yourself but you helped your best friend also.  I suspect you have helped save many others from these men also.  I am so sorry she had to leave but she is now safe because of you!  Now you and her need to take some time to heal.  This may take a little bit but one step at a time and one day at a time. All of this speaks volumes of who you are, how strong you are and what an absolutely amazing life you can have.  Look how much you just accomplished.  Wow!  Take some time, dust yourself off, and shine bright!  The way you will win is by not ever letting anyone stop you from the successes you can have in your life.  This has all been a lot to take in but you are a fighter and survivor!  I have a feeling you are going to be a very bright and shining star!  Don't let anyone ruin your life, especially him.  Don't let him win-YOU WIN!  Many hugs!  So so proud of you!  Wish you the best!