I hate my life

[katie761]

My life gets worse and worse everyday, i keep having suicidal thoughts and im not gonna go to the hospital again because of it. I just want it to go away. I see a therapist but wont see her to next week, and my problems are all just balling up in my head and im about to explode. The pain i go through everyday is taking over my life. All i do is sit around and just think of all my problems (what a life) I want out, sometimes i wanna die. I have help but it's not working and im just sick of living with all these problems, and i know people have it worse then me, but a lot of people also don't know what i go through on a day to day basis, and thats why im not getting anywhere in my treatment, no matter what no ones gonna be able to help me, im so messed up and there is just to much to repair :(( so ill probably be a cutter my whole life an be judged by people who know nothing about me. I am so sick of it.

[me456]

who gives a crap what people think of u, u are your own person take that ball and trash it you dont need it in your head. you 17 be a teen you only live once so live good.  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FV-HPOHu8mY

[angel994]

also I have been hospitalised in the past so I understand you not wanting to go back. it is frusterating and scary and you feel all alone. but you arent alone and considering you are reaching out for help shows that you are stronger than you thought. keep up the good work sweety. as silly as this sounds it worked wonders for me and my self esteem: rap your arms around yourself and give yourself a good strong hug and say out loud I love me over and over till it comes with a smile and a good warm feeling. i have learned that the more you love yourself the easier things are. you make better friends. you get helped faster. you get inner satisfaction within yourself. take account of all the good in your life. its up to you to be happy. noone can do it but you. however people can give you advice and pointers on things  that may help you but it is entirely up to you. there is an old saying. : you must be the change you wish to see in the world. so basically it means if you want peace and happiness you must find it within yourself.

[angel994]

hi katie my name is angel. i used to cut myself and get really depressed. i found that talking to someone i know and trust really helped me. i tried so many things to harm myself because i thought that physical pain helped lessen my emotional pain. i was constantly abused growing up and I thought it was my fault. so i thought that punishing myself might help.i later learned just how important I am. i am beautiful strong and very fortunate to be alive. you are too. you have so much to live for. you are a mother and your baby needs you more than anyone else. think of all that makes you happy and keep those thoughts with you at all times. yes you may feel upset but you are alive and healthy with a beautiful baby so just be strong, if you need someone to talk to give holler. I am here. i understand.

[katie761]

i wont ever let myself go back there, i hate hospitals and deff when they make me stay for a long period of time, i really dont want to have to worry about my baby if i go to a phyc ward. I do cut myself but my family and everyone knows about that and its not that serious, but i emailed my therapist but she wont get the message until next week. So i guess i will just have to wait :(.

[sueduva]

Dear Katie,
Hang in there, I know how hard it is to be depressed.
You are having a bad day today. Is there a help line you can call?

I'm sure if you aren't getting a good night sleep that doesn't help.

Please don't hurt yourself, I know it ***** to go to the hospital but if
you need to you should. Even one night, then you can talk to someone
and maybe they can help.

I just want to tell you that things do get better, but when you are so depressed it is hard to imagine. If you want to chat, send me a message.
You are loved, and people care about you,
Sue