First off I'm an 18 year old girl. I've been dealing with all these symptoms for about a year. But they keep progressively getting worse. The doctors of course said I was depressed (which I just shrugged off and said ok even though I have no reason to be I need some kind of relief) so I tried about 5 anti-depressants with no help at all. I became suicidal because I can't handle living like this anymore. I've also suffered from bulimia for the past year but I've successfully stopped on my own for the past two months and I'm eating nothing but healthy foods. yay me :)
okay so as for the symptoms: i'm completely and utterly exhausted 24/7. i sleep alll day everyday because i don't have any energy AT ALL. the rare times i bother hanging out with my friends anymore i just end up sleeping. i always have headaches, migraines really. my hair loss is frightening, i don't shower often because i'm scared i'm going to go bald it's become so thin with how much that falls out (i orginally thought this was from the bulimia but it hasn't stopped at all and it should have at least a little since i've stopped purging). no interest in sex anymore, and i used to be a sex addict almost.. hands and feet are always cold, constipation, dry brittle hair, dry skin, very pale, nausea, acne when i used to always be praised for my clear skin, achy muscles, zero motivation, major anxiety, always feel like there's drainage in my throat, dizzy, eyes are dry and very sensitive to sunlight, and the worst one is brain fog. i feel as if i'm going mentally retarded because of it. i can't even have a conversation anymore cause i can't think of anything to say if my life depended on it. it's like my mind has just been shut off. i can't focus or do anything and the tiredness is just god damn unbelievable for an 18 year old to not even be able to get out of bed. sleeping for 20 hours and still waking up exhausted. i just graduated and i'm taking a year off of school because i barely made it to graduate high school i can't even bear the thought of college. i can't get a job because i can't stay awake! i might as well just go in a coma. i seriously rather die than feel like this any longer.
i got tested for my thyroid and i told her to do the special test because my mom has hypothyroid and hers didn't show up until she did the special t3 or whatever test. but then they called and said everything was normal...except i'm vitamin d deficient. i'm going tomorrow to pick up the results to see for myself because maybe they could of read it wrong??? who knows.
pleaseeeeeeee tell me if there's anything i can do. i seriously can't go on like this anymore. i just want my old happy self back. i want to be able to talk again and not be a dead zombie all the time. i just want to be able to wake up and start the day with no problem, go tanning go shopping hang out with friends, all the things i used to love to do and i can't even gather the energy to do them. i'm so irritable and crabby towards everyone because i'm so miserable feeling like this and no one understands! they think i can just snap out of it and get up like nothings wrong. if only they could feel how i feel for a minute they'd be bitching and complaining as well.
any comments or ANYTHING you guys have to say is very much appreciated <3 thank you!