OT: It finally got to me (ankle phys therapy) I broke down in tears this morning ....

[ChitChatNine]

as she began to work on my ankle ... I was in excrutiating pain this morning to the point that I had ZERO range of motion for the first 3 mins upon awakening and was excrutiatingly painful.  Finally it worked itself out but so so disappointing after having a string of good days where I could walk on it first thing in the morning.

I cried and cried and finally stopped bawling ..........it hit home that this is something I am very upset about and have to accept ...... it was fear, disappointment, and not knowing the future all rolled up into one good cry session along with PMS LOL.  She got me a tissue and then I felt better.  I did no exercises the past two sessions as too sore so we backed wayyyy down on the program.  But that is ok.  We do what we need to do you know.

I bought a very supportive pair of basektball sneakers that are high-tops and will try the orthotics in them .. my current sneaks are too small and I need more support.  I have accepted I have to do this and looks mean nothing as I have to heal.  

Phys Therapist thinks it is more the arthritis causing the pain than the tendonitis .. nice again. And keep in mind I'm on heavy duty arthritis meds daily.

THANKS FOR THE VENT ...........................I guess better to let it out when not coping so well vs. doing just so great when not really.

C~ (severe tibial tendonitis along with severe degenerative arthritis of the ankle joint .. forgot the name of it). Thyca 1/7 .... and lovely Melanoma 6/07 but both doing great and best case scenarios for both that one can wish for.  

[artsyrose]

oh...I am sooooo glad the shore vacation is not until Tues...it might have been hard to get things ready and leave today!...I am leaving Thurs for the Netherlands....we will not be back until the evening of the 20th...talk about withdrawal...but not to worry..I am taking my laptop...but can't log on everyday...it is way too expensive there and I don't want to run up my inlaws internet bill...but I will check in ...would NOT be able to stand it otherwise LOL

[ChitChatNine]

My old doc was very empathetic and talked to me when I called him with the orthotic ?'s earlier in the week .. spent 15mins on the phone with me ?? and it was 10:00PM at night when he called .. maybe that is why ???  Maybe it was a bad day?  Not sure but will see as I make up my mind .. he "may" be the slice and dice guy while my next opinion may see me thru more conservative measures ???

Anyway .. that appt for #2 Ortho (ankle/foot only guy) is not until Aug 7.

YOO HOO . .new sneakers are out of this world comfy cozy .... they must have been misfit and my feet fighting for support in wrong spots!!! WHOA .. I hope it continues.

C~

[dart frog]

Well shoot! Are we all tired of them up and down weeks yet????? Wish life would make up its mind and give everyone a break espically you Cheryl!

Hope the new shoes does the trick for you. Glad to see you are sticking to the orthotics. Whats the word on the new doctor? Was your therapist able to get anywhere with the old one?????

[ChitChatNine]

YES the new sneakers I bought are Men's Reebox .. they are basketball sneakers and your mom is right .. VERY ROOMY bcz if you touch the end of the orthotic on the sides by being too narrow then you feel the ridge digging in the foot!!  

I bet when they break in I'll be like the Rapper's on TV .. laces hanging out and nice comfy leather all around me, eh?!  :::wink wink:::

Cheryl

[JoBa]

I don't know why it seems to be that when it rains it pours.  Dealing with one thing s tough, but when you've got a lot of stuff going on at the same time (as I do also), then it rapidly becomes overwhelming.  I think that letting it all out occasionally is actually therapeutic (my husband would probably disagree with that, LOL), if even for only a short time.  Please know that we share your frustration and wish you all the best.  You will get past this and, eventually it will feel like it was all a dream.

Try to have a good weekend, maybe curl up with a good book.  I don't know if you do a lot of reading, but I recommend the Stephanie Plum books by Janet Evanovich.  They are easy to read, funny, and always help lift my spirits.

[kipland]

Your last post sounded so much better, and I'm glad.  I'm hanging in there too.  Actually, after I vented on here, my night got a lot better and I haven't felt so stressed.  Good indicator that I need to let things out, huh?  I'm sure this week is going to be hard for me.  I've had a really hard time staying focused at work, and just generally feel anxious.  I'm ready to get this surgery done and out of the way.  Then if I can just get through hypohell, it should be pretty smooth sailing, right?  And there we go again, it's the unknown that drives me nuts.  
Hugs!
Lori

[At The End of My Rope]

Hang in there my friend...one day at a time.....Take Care-PAm Hugs

[DLA]

((((((((HUGS)))))))  Sorry things have gotten so hard for you again.  Hang in there.  Have you tried men's shoes.  They have more room up and down (whatever you call that).  When my mom did the orthodics that's what she wore.  Good luck and am praying for you.

Dac

[ChitChatNine]

Artsy & Scarlet:  The shore is Tues and I go again to P/T on Monday so this is good news even to just get a thorough icedown!  Thanks for your post my friend means alot to me ::::))))  .. afterall, we did the thyroid surgery thing together AND then Artsy did the dermatologist is it cancer or no cancer thing together with big incisions ..... ::::)))) .... so I guess we've been thru alot together!!

Everyone Else:  THANK YOU SO SO SO MUCH and, yes, sometimes good to just vent and then feel a bit better.  Yeah, not just me having PMS this month, eh? LOL ....... Kipland ...... you have had a fair share of woes too .. you hang in there!!!!  

Crocsrock: I tried the Crocs my daughter has and boo hoo ... too much wobbling for my poor foot .. 1/2 needs softness and 1/2 needs stiffness .. p/t told me today tendon problem needs stability and arthritis doesn't need stability .. sooo double edged sword!!!!


It is midnight .. just got offline with Verizon after 2hrs we are Wireless Connected on the PC but now static on the line .. UGH UGH UGH .. great diversion if not anything else!

Cheryl

[crocsrock]

Prayers & hugs to you.  

[kipland]

Sending e-hugs your way, Cheryl!!  I see you're joining me in the PMS week?  I haven't made it to the crying phase yet - just the ticked off one!!!  So glad that you posted and got it out.  It sure helped me last night!

I'm so sorry to hear that your therapy was so painful today.  I sure understand the not knowing the future feeling.  It's scary!!  Hopefully, every time you do this therapy it'll get better and better.  I guess we have to have some bad days to appreciate the good.  I hate 'em, though!!!

Hope you have a good weekend, and try to keep your chin up!!  :-)

Lori

[scarlet37]

   ~sending a prayer your way~    




    

[artsyrose]

you know I am thinking of you...I am so sorry you are not doing well...I know you are planning to go to the shore...tomorrow? gee I hope that goes ok...? Kathy