I want to live!

[Jennifer1987]

Oh God! I have never posted here so much in my life... I am just at my wits end.... I cant take this c.r.a.p anymore. I am so depressed today! Crying a lot, taking my moods out on my boyfriend and just over all wish I was dead at times (dont worry not sucidial) Just keep saying to God to put me out of my misery...

I took my bad ood out on my b/f today and he totally did not deserve it! I feel so bad about that now aswel! I am so frecking annoyed that Im going through and that its so unfair. Jez like theres murderers and abusers out there living the life of luxary and then theres people who try to lead good law abiding lives like us and WE suffer...... Im sick of it! I feel like screaming!
AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

[Smilerdeb]

Have you given RAI a thought?
Both have side effects but the parathyroid glands are more than likely to get damaged with TT.
Go into every option available.
And yes I know I am going to get slammed for suggesting RAI but I say it as I see it.

If I have upset anyone I apologise for that but not for suggesting RAI.

[Venora Moonwind]

HI there.Been following the thread and I have to say I feel better without my thyroid than I ever did with. I am bi polar as well and now I know that thyroid hyper to hypo and back is alot like bi polar with the mood swings, I had a huge goiter that went sub sternal( cause I had a stupid reg doc that ignored my health complaints) and it just happened to have cancer in it.
So I dont know which came first the thryoid or the bi polar but like I said I feel better than I have felt in years.( Its been almost 3 years)
Now it took awhile to get where I am with the med tweaking and such.
let your doc know how much you are suffering. I always throught the point od docoting was to relieve the suffering( I am being tongue in cheek now as I now first hand that docs are human  fist now.lol)
Keep posting and journaling. When I was in hypohell for my RAI it did help to write out the emotions and put the depression on paper to get it out of my head.
Be good to yourself and and let us know what the doc says.
Love Venora

[Jennifer1987]

I dont know much about RAI??

Venora, when you say your bitter more now, What does that mean??? Do you feel better with the yhyroid out???

Sorry for all the questions, Im so just confused on what to do now...

[Venora Moonwind]

Sorry to take  so long to get back to you
I feel better now without my thyroid because I have got my synthroid tweaked just right finnally. My surgery was in 06 and around last summer I  started to really feel good, I lost weight 46 pounds.

Now I had to have a substernal goiter removed and it took a long time for my sternum to heal. That is part what took so long to feel better too

The other poster are right to let you know the risk of RAI and surgery. I just thought you ought to hear some positive outcome of  surgery. I dont think you ought to be allowed to suffer the way you are  but you are the one that has to gather all the information of the pros and cons. Education of your dillema will help you to make the best, informed decision possible
I am saying prayers that your suffering be ended soon.
Blessed be
Venora

[Jennifer1987]

Thanks so much. Well I pretty much have my mind made up. I cant stand this anymore and the thyroid will die eventually so it doesn't make a difference!

I know that there are pros and cons to it but I know that will be something I will have eventually anyway! So why not get it out now and save myself the hassle of the ups and downs and anxiety Im experiencing! I turning 22 in three weeks and I feel like Im 90!

I want to live my life the way I did before all of this...... I couldn't imagine living this he// for much longer..

So now my dilema i, how do I convince my doc to do it... I can opt for it can't i???
It will be my decision in the end and not his???
I didn't say it to him yet so Im worried he will refuse!

[dani2776]

When do you go back to the doctor?  If you find a way to convince him let me know.  I too am seriously contemplating it!  Today my neck hurts so bad I can't even touch it.  Swallowing and even speaking hurts as well and the pain is radiating up into my ear!!!  Does yours ever get this bad?