This is interfering with your ability to make a living. It is time to get some help from a professional, and maybe a career counselor as well. No one should be this stressed about a job.
She's right. After 4 days, you may not even have a job anymore. You must seek professional help for your anxiety. It is prohibiting you from experiencing a 'normal life'. I would spend your time at home on the phone searching for a therapist. You don't deserve this, you are worth much better, please believe that.
Thank you for your responses. I called my mom at work and told her everything that I have been feeling. She was very supportive and tried to offer me some advice. Talking to her made me feel a lot better, and I am so glad I did.She told me to make a doctor's appt, and offered me some advice about work (she is a preschool teacher) and she says that she has gone through it before (who would have known?) I read about what I have been feeling on WebMd.com and it also says that I should make a doctor's appt. and try to get some therapy or medication. I really do not want medication, but I am hoping that I can do something to stop these bad feelings about myself. I am already feeling a little better but I know that it will take some work. well, thanks for making me feel better, I am glad I posted this on here too.
I am so glad to hear that you are actively seeking help already! You should be feeling better already! Great Job! Take care, and I wish you the best! :)
The first step in working through this is telling someone (I told my mum too and it felt brilliant). Whilst it is easier to stay at home and not really call in properly, you get into a vicious circle and get even more afarid. I let mine get too far and now suffer from sporadic agaraphobia (sp?) so you have done the right thing. Good luck, x x