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Consider yourself one of the lucky ones, sounds like you have an excellent GP, mine is like that too. That is why I feel so bad when I read stories people post about how they are getting the run around from their Dr.
That is really great news! You must feel comfortable in his care.
He sounds like, as I call it, an angel without wings, people that will go out of thier way to help you, that is what he is doing, the same with my Dr. This is a very positive sign for you, at least you know you are under the best care, someone who cares (besides me).
You sound like you are ready to kill this addiction, and I am here to support you 100%.
You sound confident and strong, even though I know you have the butterfly's in your stomach, you will be fine, from what I have read about you, you are strong enough and determined enough to succeed.
Do you obsolutely have no one to take care of your little guy?
Regardless, do this for him and you. No excuses, just keep taking those steps forward, dont think about them "Just do it"
When you are done, plan a day for yourself, go to a spa, enjoy some of that $500.00 - you will deserve it.
You do have someone, ME. I check my email everyday, I will go the distance with you whenever you need someone.
Get some rest, and keep me informed.
Soon.....Chenoa a.k.a. doctora
That is really great news! You must feel comfortable in his care.
He sounds like, as I call it, an angel without wings, people that will go out of thier way to help you, that is what he is doing, the same with my Dr. This is a very positive sign for you, at least you know you are under the best care, someone who cares (besides me).
You sound like you are ready to kill this addiction, and I am here to support you 100%.
You sound confident and strong, even though I know you have the butterfly's in your stomach, you will be fine, from what I have read about you, you are strong enough and determined enough to succeed.
Do you obsolutely have no one to take care of your little guy?
Regardless, do this for him and you. No excuses, just keep taking those steps forward, dont think about them "Just do it"
When you are done, plan a day for yourself, go to a spa, enjoy some of that $500.00 - you will deserve it.
You do have someone, ME. I check my email everyday, I will go the distance with you whenever you need someone.
Get some rest, and keep me informed.
Soon.....Chenoa a.k.a. doctora
It's December 2nd. I'm so scared. My psychiatrist had changed my antidepressant a couple of weeks ago just because I could not afford the one I was on. Now, I wake up crying, get so angry I just cry, all I do is cry. I called him Friday and he told me to immediately come by his office Monday morning and he will give me samples to last me six weeks of my old medicine since I can't pay for it. Which when the methadone is gone I will have an extra $500 a month and can get the medication. What a blessing he's helping me out. I do have an appointment with him about eight days into withdrawal and may have to find someone to drive me. He told me if I get suicidal over the weekend to call him immediately and he can have a bed ready for me at the hospital and I won't have to go through the er and all that. I think when I get stable on my meds my outlook will change a little and I will get some of my old determination back. It's like the devil is making my mind do everything it can to keep me from stopping this methadone. Every excuse I can think of not to stop. I have no one to help with my youngest son and that's what is really bothering me. I need at least a week to heal and hurt and cry and pray and everything that goes along with it. I just don't have anyone. But I will make it. I have to, I have no choice. It will definitely make me stronger. Thank you asking and for thinking of me.
Don't ever think of yourself as a loser, you have made the best of the situation you were given and you are going to come out ahead. Just keep your head up and keep doing the right thing and blessings will come your way. I'm here for you. Sorry you had to listen to my sob story but I'm really, really down right now. I think I'm actually going to go to bed now and just take it easy tomorrow. Talk with you soon...Brandy
Don't ever think of yourself as a loser, you have made the best of the situation you were given and you are going to come out ahead. Just keep your head up and keep doing the right thing and blessings will come your way. I'm here for you. Sorry you had to listen to my sob story but I'm really, really down right now. I think I'm actually going to go to bed now and just take it easy tomorrow. Talk with you soon...Brandy
Of course I will message you. Thank you for the kind words. I like to believe that we have gotten past the worse, a bit lighter in the pockets yet, but a fresh start, which I can use as either a blessing as my life is also starting fresh, or look at it as being a loser, but I prefer the first.
Once we finish paying off one bill from our house that we sold, we will only have rent, cable and phone, we have also finished paying the bankruptcy lawyer, so we should soon have approx 500.00 extra a month, not including my disability, when it comes. But that is a guess on my part, my husband has been doing the finances, which I have let him go ahead and do since right now he is the only income earner.
So its either Dec 1 or 2 - you must be nervous?
Once we finish paying off one bill from our house that we sold, we will only have rent, cable and phone, we have also finished paying the bankruptcy lawyer, so we should soon have approx 500.00 extra a month, not including my disability, when it comes. But that is a guess on my part, my husband has been doing the finances, which I have let him go ahead and do since right now he is the only income earner.
So its either Dec 1 or 2 - you must be nervous?
Nothing for the withdrawal except some medicine called Nuvigil like they give to elderly people for energy when they are unable to really get around well. It is kind of like a synthetic amphetimine but don't let that scare you, it is not addictive and I will only be on it a month and will only start it after the physical withdrawal is mostly gone. Also an antidepressant for the serious depression which will kick in and I'm already on seizure medications and lupus medications of course. But no narcotics, sleeping pills, controlled substances, nothing like that. He knows we're taking a turn down a different road starting December 1st or 2nd. Can't ever remember which day it is.
Honey, you have been through so much these few years. Here you are being so helpful to others and you need so much support yourself! I got my disability after two years of not being able to work due to bipolar, seizures and lupus. It did take the entire two years and we had to live with family for a while. When I did get my disability, I got back pay but gave half of it to my Dad who let us live there for two years. The other half I used to pay off plenty of bills, helped dozens of other people, gave 10% to the church, gave 25% to my attorney, so I was really left with not much but I do get a small check every month and when my mother went into the nursing home she had a brand new house, well, four years old, so I moved into it because Medicaid had a lein on it anyway unless a family member lived in it so it all worked out. It's small, but it's paid for and so is my car so I can pay my bills. Don't have much left, don't get me wrong, we've had to go to church pantries and things before but God had really blessed me in every way and He is my life and my everything. He will get me through this along with all the wonderful people on here including you.
Be patient. It will work out. I'm sure you've been denied and are in appeal and I hope you're using an attorney, it is worth it even though you have to pay them. It's better to have to pay someone for some money you get than to never get any money. Just pray constantly and put it in God's hands. I really hope you're financial situation improves, just don't let it get you down.
I will definitely stay in touch and check out my profile page, it has some pictures up of my nephew, who is five weeks old. I know there are none of my boys 11 and 14, up there but thanks to them dropping my camera so much and soaking it in water, their pictures are on a disposable Kodak camera so when it's used up I will put the pics on a cd and add them to the others. The pictures on there were taken with my sister's camera and the boys weren't with me.
I will stay in touch definitely and message me sometime if you want. Take care and thank you.....
Honey, you have been through so much these few years. Here you are being so helpful to others and you need so much support yourself! I got my disability after two years of not being able to work due to bipolar, seizures and lupus. It did take the entire two years and we had to live with family for a while. When I did get my disability, I got back pay but gave half of it to my Dad who let us live there for two years. The other half I used to pay off plenty of bills, helped dozens of other people, gave 10% to the church, gave 25% to my attorney, so I was really left with not much but I do get a small check every month and when my mother went into the nursing home she had a brand new house, well, four years old, so I moved into it because Medicaid had a lein on it anyway unless a family member lived in it so it all worked out. It's small, but it's paid for and so is my car so I can pay my bills. Don't have much left, don't get me wrong, we've had to go to church pantries and things before but God had really blessed me in every way and He is my life and my everything. He will get me through this along with all the wonderful people on here including you.
Be patient. It will work out. I'm sure you've been denied and are in appeal and I hope you're using an attorney, it is worth it even though you have to pay them. It's better to have to pay someone for some money you get than to never get any money. Just pray constantly and put it in God's hands. I really hope you're financial situation improves, just don't let it get you down.
I will definitely stay in touch and check out my profile page, it has some pictures up of my nephew, who is five weeks old. I know there are none of my boys 11 and 14, up there but thanks to them dropping my camera so much and soaking it in water, their pictures are on a disposable Kodak camera so when it's used up I will put the pics on a cd and add them to the others. The pictures on there were taken with my sister's camera and the boys weren't with me.
I will stay in touch definitely and message me sometime if you want. Take care and thank you.....
Well it sounds like you are prepared, thats good. I would be honoured if you could let me know how it is going through the detox etc., you can tell me the good, bad and ugly, Ive seen it and have experienced it, indirectly.
My story is a very long one, but I will try to keep it brief. I am married 26yrs, been with him 30yrs. I have one daughter, age 22, who the dr's said I wouldnt be able to have, because a Dr. put an IUD in me when I was young and punctured my uterus, plus I had a lot of scare tissue on both of my tubes from an STD which I got after a rape. But luckily I was able to have her, she was a primi, but a fighter and she still is.
I am an Aquarian, true to the symbol, artistic, creative, intuitive, peace, love and all that jazz.
I have spent most of my working life in finance/insurance/exec asst. all jobs I hate, but life threw them at me, and it is also hard to make a living in the arts. Currently I am waiting to get my disability approved, its been a year already!
Had to sell our home, and most of our stuff, and declare bankruptcy, which we were trying to avoid, but the disability didnt come through. We moved 3 mths ago into the city and are renting a condo, we sold a lot of our stuff, but we had too much anyway. In the span of 8 yrs, we lost my mother, father, father in-law, cousin, uncle. So we had too much stuff anyway from inheriting other housefuls of furniture. That makes me the eldest in the family, aside from my first cousin who is in his 50's I think. Otherwise it is me, my husband, my daughter and my brother, who is 7 1/2 yrs younger than me, and a firefighter.
Luckily my husband has been working at the same job for 20yrs., and he has been paying the rent etc. which is a lot less than the expenses for a house, like hydro, gas, electric etc., but I know he will be happy when I do get my disability, but he wants to go out and buy a flat screen TV - but that isnt going to happen until we pay back friends that helped us by giving us money for food. His priorities are a bit screwed up, but he is entitled to this, he has been soley supporting me now for years, so what can I say. I will just worry about that when it happens.
Did the Dr. give you anything to take during the withdrawl?
Let me know how it's going, I care......hugs back at ya!
My story is a very long one, but I will try to keep it brief. I am married 26yrs, been with him 30yrs. I have one daughter, age 22, who the dr's said I wouldnt be able to have, because a Dr. put an IUD in me when I was young and punctured my uterus, plus I had a lot of scare tissue on both of my tubes from an STD which I got after a rape. But luckily I was able to have her, she was a primi, but a fighter and she still is.
I am an Aquarian, true to the symbol, artistic, creative, intuitive, peace, love and all that jazz.
I have spent most of my working life in finance/insurance/exec asst. all jobs I hate, but life threw them at me, and it is also hard to make a living in the arts. Currently I am waiting to get my disability approved, its been a year already!
Had to sell our home, and most of our stuff, and declare bankruptcy, which we were trying to avoid, but the disability didnt come through. We moved 3 mths ago into the city and are renting a condo, we sold a lot of our stuff, but we had too much anyway. In the span of 8 yrs, we lost my mother, father, father in-law, cousin, uncle. So we had too much stuff anyway from inheriting other housefuls of furniture. That makes me the eldest in the family, aside from my first cousin who is in his 50's I think. Otherwise it is me, my husband, my daughter and my brother, who is 7 1/2 yrs younger than me, and a firefighter.
Luckily my husband has been working at the same job for 20yrs., and he has been paying the rent etc. which is a lot less than the expenses for a house, like hydro, gas, electric etc., but I know he will be happy when I do get my disability, but he wants to go out and buy a flat screen TV - but that isnt going to happen until we pay back friends that helped us by giving us money for food. His priorities are a bit screwed up, but he is entitled to this, he has been soley supporting me now for years, so what can I say. I will just worry about that when it happens.
Did the Dr. give you anything to take during the withdrawl?
Let me know how it's going, I care......hugs back at ya!
Well, the rheumatologist and oncologist have advised me to withdraw from the methadone first. Once it is testing negative in my bloodstream, I won't have any energy of course, but they're going to start with IV chemo (big dose) it's called cytophan (sp?), then the next week two injections of imuran, the the next week, a high dose pill of methotrexate for maybe two weeks. Then, well see where my ANA (anti-nucleic antibodies) are at and see how my liver enzymes and kidneys and brain lining are looking. It's going to be the worst time physically in my life other than the double thoracic and lumbar fusion where they used my ribs and a LOT of metal to repair my back. That was a LONG recovery.
My kids are 14 and 11. The oldest stays with his Dad during the week because he goes to a private school which is much closer to his Dad's. He probably will not be coming out when I'm going through the chemo because I will be so prone to catching anything. The youngest one, I think maybe my Great Grandmother, who, bless her heart, has early stages of alzheimers is going to keep him on weekends so she won't have to remember homework, getting him up for school, etc. My Dad might be able to keep him during the week and get him ready for school but a woman from our church actually works at his school and has offered for him to stay a couple of nights if needed or get me groceries or whatever. She's such a sweet lady, she's a blessing. He can't really take care of himself and he doesn't understand really how sick I'm going to be. I also don't need his school germs really. He thinks sick is like, oh, I've got a runny nose. Not, hey, I may die sick.
I've already started on vitamins, multivitamins and minerals for the detox and the chemo. I haven't really been able to eat, the lupus has me so sick I've lost about 12 pounds.
Your concern means so much to me. That you don't know me and care is really touching. I will have people calling constantly, my Great Grandmother is next door, my Father has a key to my house and will be checking in, I will do my best to get on here during detox and then afterwards during chemo to let everyone know what's going on.
Thank you so much for caring. It really is special. If nothing else, I will send you notes or probably messages so I don't have to display the real ugly to everyone. Don't want to scare anyone going through detox if they get it confused with the chemo. Don't know which one will be worse anyway! But enough about me. Let me know how you are doing. Send me a message and let me know some things about you. We may have a lot in common...Thanks again and hugs to you....
My kids are 14 and 11. The oldest stays with his Dad during the week because he goes to a private school which is much closer to his Dad's. He probably will not be coming out when I'm going through the chemo because I will be so prone to catching anything. The youngest one, I think maybe my Great Grandmother, who, bless her heart, has early stages of alzheimers is going to keep him on weekends so she won't have to remember homework, getting him up for school, etc. My Dad might be able to keep him during the week and get him ready for school but a woman from our church actually works at his school and has offered for him to stay a couple of nights if needed or get me groceries or whatever. She's such a sweet lady, she's a blessing. He can't really take care of himself and he doesn't understand really how sick I'm going to be. I also don't need his school germs really. He thinks sick is like, oh, I've got a runny nose. Not, hey, I may die sick.
I've already started on vitamins, multivitamins and minerals for the detox and the chemo. I haven't really been able to eat, the lupus has me so sick I've lost about 12 pounds.
Your concern means so much to me. That you don't know me and care is really touching. I will have people calling constantly, my Great Grandmother is next door, my Father has a key to my house and will be checking in, I will do my best to get on here during detox and then afterwards during chemo to let everyone know what's going on.
Thank you so much for caring. It really is special. If nothing else, I will send you notes or probably messages so I don't have to display the real ugly to everyone. Don't want to scare anyone going through detox if they get it confused with the chemo. Don't know which one will be worse anyway! But enough about me. Let me know how you are doing. Send me a message and let me know some things about you. We may have a lot in common...Thanks again and hugs to you....
The worst part, I think for you is going to be the chemo. My mother went through it, and it wiped her out, she was so tired, all she did was sleep. She didnt feel like getting up, and her T cell count was low, all we could get her to have was Ensure (vitamin beverage), to keep her vitamins up, so maybe in a weird way, it is good to have the Chemo first, then it may help with the withdrawl from the meth., because you will be so tired, you may be lucky and sleep through most of it. Just dont forget to take your meds for your seizures and keep some Gravol (stops vomitting) handy, you may need it.
How old are your children? Are they going to be able to take care of themselves if you are in bad shape?
You should register with one of those companies that you can call, or press a button to get health aid, just in case you are alone and something happens.
Promise me you will keep sending notes during this period, I would feel terrible if something happened to you, and it was something that I could have prevented.
How old are your children? Are they going to be able to take care of themselves if you are in bad shape?
You should register with one of those companies that you can call, or press a button to get health aid, just in case you are alone and something happens.
Promise me you will keep sending notes during this period, I would feel terrible if something happened to you, and it was something that I could have prevented.
Thank you for your friend invite! I'm just going to take things one day at a time. That's all I can do. The methadone detox is actually going to be the hardest part from what I've been through with it before. Don't know about the chemo but we will start with one IV treatment, the next two weeks will be injections and the next two will be pills. Hopefully, everything will start to heal itself and my immune system will stop attacking my body by then. The worst part is just the seizures because the lupus can cause the lining of my brain to inflame and it triggers the grand mal seizures but I'm on plenty of seizure meds.
I will be at home and unfortunately don't really have family to help with the kids but with God's help, I will do all of this. My doctor just gave me something to help with energy like they give elderly people, it's called nuvigil. It's for the methadone withdrawal and chemo which will come later. He did not give me narcotics or sleeping pills but I am already on klonopin as one of my seizure medications (I'm on three different seizure meds but the other two are not controlled substances). I also have neurontin which I probably won't take, it makes me feel kind of out of it. Not sleepy, but just not right.
I do appreciate your concern very much and I will send you some notes or a message to let you know how things are going. Message me sometime and let me know some things about yourself. I hope your having a great day. Thanks again for caring...
I will be at home and unfortunately don't really have family to help with the kids but with God's help, I will do all of this. My doctor just gave me something to help with energy like they give elderly people, it's called nuvigil. It's for the methadone withdrawal and chemo which will come later. He did not give me narcotics or sleeping pills but I am already on klonopin as one of my seizure medications (I'm on three different seizure meds but the other two are not controlled substances). I also have neurontin which I probably won't take, it makes me feel kind of out of it. Not sleepy, but just not right.
I do appreciate your concern very much and I will send you some notes or a message to let you know how things are going. Message me sometime and let me know some things about yourself. I hope your having a great day. Thanks again for caring...
Sounds like you are going through a lot with more to come. I have seen people coming off of meth, and it is a hard journey. How long have you been on it? Do you have a support system or are you doing it through rehab? I hope that your Dr gives you some meds to help with the withdrawl.
You too can write to me anytime you need help, or just someone to listen too..I wouldnt want to take your journey alone.
You too can write to me anytime you need help, or just someone to listen too..I wouldnt want to take your journey alone.
Honey it sounds like you have a lot to deal with. I am so sorry for you. I know gaining weight can add to the depression and it's a sign of depression. I've lost about 12 pounds in the last two months. I know you think, oh poor you, but I have no clothes to wear, I look like death and I am detoxing off methadone in two weeks. I don't know if you have a religion but pray as much as you can. God always holds His hand out to you to grab on to whenever you need and will pick you up if needed. It's okay to feel bad for yourself for the situation you are in. Like we grieve for others, we can grieve for ourselves sometimes. I am chronically ill with lupus, which you know can be fatal and the doctor is wanting to start me on some chemo to knock down my immune system it is attacking one of my kidneys so bad they may have to remove it and my liver is producing three times the enzymes it should. I obviously can't start any serious treatment until I get over this methadone but I know about being ill and I have had many pity parties and still do. Cry for yourself, cry for your situation, pray for your situation, all these things let it out some and you don't feel so trapped in what you're going through. You can message me anytime and I will just listen. I won't talk about myself, I will listen to you and do my best to pull you through. Everyone is here to support you...
Boy, you sure have a lot to deal with! I hope you are able to rest and feel a little better. Chronic pain really stinks, and we do what we must to deal with it. Demerol alone makes me vomit...so it's no surprise that mixing it with alcohol made you so sick.
Thanks for your last post!
I am really sore today. Had a road trip over the weekend, 8 hrs of driving, and sitting in one position really wore on me.
Then I get home, and lose a tooth, thankfully it was a molar I had already had a root canal on so it doesnt hurt, but I have severe osteoporosis, and my teeth are first to pay the price.
I took some Demerol on Saturday, my back and neck were in spasm, but that was due to my worrying about going to see my in-laws. I had a beer and a half in the evening, and let me tell you, dont drink at all if you take Demerol! I was up for 4hrs vomitting, just from that little amount of alcohol, so I got to bed around 4:00 and had to leave at 8 to go to in-laws, I felt like I had been hit by a truck, thank gawd I didnt have to drive.
I have been trying to cut back on the pain meds., but it seems that every time I do, something happens, I break a bone, or a tooth etc and I am in pain again.
I guess I need to be patient.
Im glad to be home, and back chatting with you all though.
I am really sore today. Had a road trip over the weekend, 8 hrs of driving, and sitting in one position really wore on me.
Then I get home, and lose a tooth, thankfully it was a molar I had already had a root canal on so it doesnt hurt, but I have severe osteoporosis, and my teeth are first to pay the price.
I took some Demerol on Saturday, my back and neck were in spasm, but that was due to my worrying about going to see my in-laws. I had a beer and a half in the evening, and let me tell you, dont drink at all if you take Demerol! I was up for 4hrs vomitting, just from that little amount of alcohol, so I got to bed around 4:00 and had to leave at 8 to go to in-laws, I felt like I had been hit by a truck, thank gawd I didnt have to drive.
I have been trying to cut back on the pain meds., but it seems that every time I do, something happens, I break a bone, or a tooth etc and I am in pain again.
I guess I need to be patient.
Im glad to be home, and back chatting with you all though.
welcome to the group, i am sure you can help many! I speak for myself and hopefully others as well when i say that NO ONE here will judge your med use, this is not the substance abuse forum, the only way your meds will//should be brought into conversation is if you ask a question about your meds, again thanks SO MUCH for joining and wanting to help!
It's great that you want to join this group the more people we have with experiences in different problems the better.Welcome
Denise
Denise
Hello Narla & group;
I have joined in the hopes that I may be able to assist someone who is going through issues with Bi-Polar, Schizoaffective Disorder, Depression, Alcoholism, marital issues, medication issues, and basically anything that I am going through or can help anyone else with. I am also sure I will and can use the support of the others in the group.
Unlike most in the group, I take a lot of medication, but it is very necessary, at least at this point and time in my life. I am not anti-medication, but I am also pro holistic medication and pro psyciatric therapy.
I hope this group will be able to assist me too with the many issues life can throw at me.
Thanks again.
I have joined in the hopes that I may be able to assist someone who is going through issues with Bi-Polar, Schizoaffective Disorder, Depression, Alcoholism, marital issues, medication issues, and basically anything that I am going through or can help anyone else with. I am also sure I will and can use the support of the others in the group.
Unlike most in the group, I take a lot of medication, but it is very necessary, at least at this point and time in my life. I am not anti-medication, but I am also pro holistic medication and pro psyciatric therapy.
I hope this group will be able to assist me too with the many issues life can throw at me.
Thanks again.
Wow-thats a lot to be dealing with,I think it would be normal if you have physical limitation to put some weight on,do you get any physio,or pain management to help.No problem having a pity pout but it's great you've given yourself 24 hrs to pull yourself together again.Whenever you feel like talking about anything just post here I'll respond as soon as I can,because I live in Australia my replies will come at night in the US.
I am depressed, just recently lost a friend, now my cousin is dying. I have gained 20 lbs whichadds to the depression, i have no clothes to wear. I have been criticaly ill progressing to chronically ill with chronic pain and alot of physical limitations. so....iam sorta on the pity pout but i have given myself only 24hrs to do so then I need to pull myself out. stubby
we just post what ever is pressing in our lives, ANYTHING...we try to help each other, we give support, advise, just be there for each other, care for each other. No matter what you come here with you do not have to feel weird or alone, we all just try to help. I think you will fit in just fine! please join and post, reply, or whatever you want to do, Glad to have you!! : )
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