thoughts on suicide

[narla]

I've just been reading a post on the depression forum about a girl who constantly thinks of suicide.she says she won't do it but everyone who replied is worried about her, what shocks me is I have the same kind of thoughts on a regular basis I didn't think it was that strange,Below are just some of the thoughts I have.  


I've been on anti-depressants for 15yrs,I take Zoloft for anxiety,panic attacks and depreesion. I often think about suicide I know I won't do it but the thoughts are often there.I can just be driving in the car and think what would it be like if I ran into a brick wall,I've thought about cutting my wrists in the bath and I can visualise the blood,Sometimes my mind goes through the whole scenario right up to my funeral,I would say on a weekly basis at least once or twice suicide will be in my thoughts.I've never told my doctor because It's been like this for so long I know I won't do anything,I don't have to actually be depressed to have these thoughts,To be honest I thought lots of people were the same I didn't realise it was strange. Denise  

[salsinator]

Hi Denise - Lee,

I felt compelled to comment on this post.  I have really not thought about suicide myself, but I guess there have been a few time when I have been really down when I was a kid and being abused that I thought if I were dead it would be better - at least the problem would go away, but I never got beyond the thought and today, I never think like that.

The reason that I am commenting is because I have a friend a work who has a history of being depressed.  She is very religious and I think that she uses religion to fill a void that she is seeking for happiness.  I don't know why she is depressed, but she has a husband and two kids.  Anyway, I came to work today and she was not there - she misses a lot of work, so I just assumed it was another day with her being out.  Well, I was told that she tried to kill herself yesterday.  I never thought she would do that.  I don't know what she did, but she did not succeeed.  I hope that she comes around and that she is getting help - alot of time, an attempt is a cry for help.  Keep her in your prayers.  Steve

[narla]

I actually spoke with my doctor yesterday and she has been my Dr for 20 yrs,she is not worried about the thoughts I have as she said they're just thoughts and as long as I know that's all they are there's no problem,like I said I've been like this forever it seems so now I've talked to my Dr I'm not worried.  Denise

[leeisgettingclean]

i dont think thinkin about death is strange, I think lots of people think of death. Everyone has a differant imagination and i think how far you actually think and visulaize death only depends on who you are