Hey, thanks-- my story looks good now, but my wife and family didn't enjoy 'reading' it! I'm not sure if I have mentioned it here... but google 'mens health' and 'the junkie in the OR'-- that was one of those 'good news, bad news' things-- hey mom, the good news is I am discussed in Mens Health, an international magazine! Oh, the bad news? well, the title is the junkie in.....
You can see the dilemma!
OK, about you-- I am not a big fan of getting too much into the plans for detox--- simply because the hard part is staying clean. I hear you -- you want to stop this stuff. And that is great-- the problem is that most people will lose that motivation to stay clean somewhere down the line, often long after the misery of withdrawal is gone and forgotten. So IF you find yourself back on opiates, please bite the bullet and get help, sooner rather than later-- residential treatment and meetings, or Suboxone, whichever. Find the one that works for you.
As for a trial of 'cold turkey'... the bottom line is that opiate w/d alone will not kill you (you only wish you were dead-- that's the rest of the gallows humor). For my last one in 2001 I got nothing-- I was pretty sick, but I kept telling myself that people have tolerated worse. I'm sure having a baby hurts much more! But the way to handle the w/d is to target the symptoms; first, clonidine is the classic med for opiate w/d for decades-- it is also a blood pressure pill. Immodium is over the counter and controls stomach cramps and diarrhea. Clonidine helps with sleep and the 'creepy crawlies' on your skin. I have found that I'm not the only person to treat fatigue or anxiety with meds that have the potential for addiction-- but I am not going to get into a mess arguing for them here. The actual risk of getting addicted to something used for a week to treat opiate withdrawal is very low-- there is a 'knee-jerk' reaction against any addictive substances used with addicts, but there is a big difference between short-term targeted use of a medication, vs buying addictive drugs on the street-- which I never support, particularly after working as a psychiatrist in a maximum security prison for over two years!!
The community forum will have much advice on managing w/d as well.
Wow your story was so inspring! Changing the world one person at a time