when i was a child one my girl family member used make me touch her panties by putting me under her skirt. i didnt it was wrong at that time nothing , made me aware it was bad . i think she was also a teenager in her 16 or 17 i was around 8 or 9. another one of was a distant member who used to sleep in out home. who abused to very bad made me do oral sex and all it whent way. did all these have any relation with my porn addiction and masturbation addiction fear of talking to girls. any experts here iam struggling to end my addiction thinking back i was first introduced to this way .. after i was abused . think i was not aware iam being abused so idid t tell anyone. but thinking back it makes me feel weird.