Suicide?

[bdd1987]

Addicted to alcohol for the first time.  Fiancé can't accept,  other personal issues.  Think suicide is the only way out.  Searching for ways now.

[margypops]

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[melipops]

Hi, don't give up it is not the only way out. Life gets complicated sometimes but I always say if things are really bad they can only get better. People do care you ahve done the right thing getting on here. You need to get onto a 24 hr helpline and get them to take you to treatment. Suicide is never the way out. You could end up being worse off by trying and having something go wrong. Please look at your problems one by one. I can't say enough get help. Don't give up you are stronger than that just admitting how you feel on this forum proves that hang in there. Take care People will listen on here.  Let us know how you go

[overopiates]

Ok Im glad ur reaching out.THIS IS MY AUICIDE STORY.My father commited suicide when I was4(my sister5,my2other siblings who called him dad were sister11brother13).He had a VERY rough life for example at13his mom took him&his2younger siblings2a train station said2wait and never came back4them.He was over6ft tall looked old enough2lie&get a job at a slaughter house(this was the60's easy to lie2get a job).He was supporting his6yr old sister&10yr old brother.He  looked like a grown man but was only14when he was n a bar w/the work crew&a guy picked a fight my dad was so scared fought literally to the death.Spent until21n prison.Thats just1example.By the time my mom was w/him at25he had been married15+years2an older woman no kids(later found out really abusive2her)mom already had2kids w/her ex husband&didnt want more yet.He said he was sterile(he was12-13yrs older than her,very charming.actually the charm was being a amazing scam artist,hustler,severe alcoholic off/on,gambling addict,later VERY physically abusive2my mom&brother.mom5ft100lb brother smaller dad6'4"240lb).Very moody diagnosed w/manic depression many attempts2get right meds early80's they sucked ar medicating him correctly.He fooled my young mom got her pregnant n1month.He went from a super intellegent,charming dream to a crazy nightmare.Mom tried2leave many times he even said he would go(while mom.had2black eyes,broken nose protecting my brother)said he wanted2say bye2me+sis.Kidnapped us4-6months she.didnt.c or talk2her2+3yr olds.She searched,police.couldnt do n e thing no1had legal custody.She had2agree2b back w/him2get us she would do n e thing&knew as soon as she was alone he was going2hurt her.She was right+tried2attack my12yr old80lb brother cause mom+him would always try2protect each other.FAST FOWARD2me at4.Dad n&out of mental hospitals,mom starting a business w/o a dime.He helped4a few days then just mom working18hrs/7daus wk.Dad drunk,depressed etc.wont get out of bed.Money n bank,nice home(my mom later told me.she was happy he wasnt around her or us less stress/fear etc).Mom gets call her mothers dying we pack4-2wks cloths go2ohio.W/Omom knowing he empties bank account of$1000's,calls+gives.the business my mom worked so hard4to her partner etc.He loved2cry wolf w/doing awful things,then threatening2kill himself she always fell4it not this time.He spent all our money gambling(including rent+food4us kids).Last live memory was him punching my mom drunk up4-3days gambling,drinking.etc because she was.crying that we will  b homeless,hungry etc.He called said he was gonna take ironically all his manic-dep.meds if she. Didnt take him back.She called his bluff.HE DIED AT THE ER AFTER HE SAID HE TOOK SOME PILLS.They didnt take acrion quick enough.That is sich a bitter sweet feeling.No dad but he could b a MONSTER but normal great guy,couldnt get the right meds2fix bipolar,severe binge alcoholic so many addictions etc.Now he would b ok get the right meds,AA,therapy these were things he wanted.Hes gone Im29,the youngest.HE WAS A SELFISH COWARD WHO DIDNT GIVE A DAMN LEAVING US BEHIND,LEAVING THE LAST MEMORY OF HIM  DRUNK HITTING MY MOM ETC
Sister1yr older pill.addict(LONG BACK STORY)2kids now9+11depressed6yrs ago got drunk cut.from.wrist2elblow w/box cutter.She was blessed2b found,survived awful scares,almost lost kids a few timea(there father is15yrs older than her gor her preg.w/n1week of meeting about her18th b-day+an everything addict from scratch offs+cigarettes2heroin+crack)moron to boot.
HERES MY POINT.MY SISTER IS DOIN AMAZING90DAY N HOUSE REHAB.AFTER@30ALL HER ORGANS FAILED.Now shes.on antidepressants(actually weaning off1yr sober,single mom works60+hrs.wkly.she is doing amazing+her kids have a stable home,normal parent+shes tired.but happier than shes ever been(never kept a.job longer than a few days til now+shes the manager happened after only50days of hard work).Suicide is a cowardly,selfish thing to do.Ur  an alcoholic,get treatment NOW&also anti deppresants,meetings,therapy.Suicide is a permenant solution to a temporary problem.My sis thought she was like my dad now she knows she is who she is a.GREAT MOM,SISTER,DAUGHTER,RECOVERING ADDICT,LUCKY2B ALIVE AFTER SUICIDE ATTEMPT,ORGANS FAILING ETCMy dad said we would b better off,no1n his family would care.WRONG.Even so IM TELLING U I CARE.U deserve to have a life free of the alcohol,pain,sadness.etc.GET HELP.Dont b a coward,dont give up.U have something2offer the world..YOU sober,happy+better.Btw if no1cared how r u engaged????Some1loves u.ITS A SHAME ITS NOT U.Get help.Dont give up

[bdd1987]

Not a cry for help either.  Not going to do it tonite/.   Planning my escape shortly/. Don't have family that would care.  Not rlly anyone that would/.  Just want out/. Of everything.