Sorry about my last post.

[Mangee]

Sorry about my last post. My wife said I have been too tense the past weeks and that I should lighten up. Actually she is right .It started when a friend of mine died of cancer six weeks after he was diagnosed, The another friend was placed in a home due to dementia. I visit him but it is hard to take. Finally another friend passed away with alzheimers.  Before all this my sister was told that she had spots on her lungs. The doctor told her that there was no sense in operating etc. due to the fact that she is 91 years of age, She agreed as did we all. When I get too tense or too bothered by circumstances I do something completely inane, hence my previous post. Getting silly, even if you are alone, is a great way of relieving pressure. I make faces at myself in the mirror, I dance to the TV,  I write silly notes to myself on the computer and stuff like that. Perhaps I am a little off but hey, I am 83 years of age and I am at the stage where I get away with things that are attributed to senility. So if you read a post that is completely off base you will know that I am just trying to shrug off some things that are trying to pin me down. Perhaps not now, but in time as you grow older and weightier things are placed on your shoulders you will understand. Here we all have had the weight of addiction weigh us down and we get more and more tense as it does it's best to drag us down. We may not be able to shake it at first so we do what we can to lighten the load. Some of us pray, some of us scream with frustration, some grit their teeth, swear at themselves, etc. Some just say to hell with it and do nothing.  Doing nothing is a big mistake because it means you are giving up. Is that what you want, to sit by the side of the road and watch others pass you by? If you pray, scream ,swear and so on, it means that you are gathering yourself together, taking a deep breath and soon you are ready to try again. It isn't how many times you fall but how many times you lift yourself up to try again that says who you are. So the question is, "Who are you?"

[GoingToMakeIt]

It is so hard dealing with these issues. I am sorry that you have to. My Dad is 89 and was just diagnosed with lung cancer. And yes, it *****. He has been as sharp as a tack, as are you. Keep hanging in there. I have always liked your posts and you.
Dave

[10356]

I'm also very sorry for the losses you have experienced and so grateful you have a wife that is not afraid to speak her mind.. welcome back Mangee I'm grateful you decided to stay as I have said before you make sense and I appreciate this very much and your sense of humor always brings a smile.. warmly lesa

[Greatgreebo]

Sorry about your buddies...it stinks when people up and die on you. Hang in there kid :-) You are young at heart and that is what counts.
Please take care and keep the posts coming. Like I said before, you make me smile!
Greebs

[flmagi]

I'm very happy to see you back, you're last post kinda scared me, like you were really saying Good-Bye forever.
I have to say, if you didn't tell us you were 83, I would guess you to be much, much younger.  From your posts, it's easy to see that your faculties are still well intact, as is your sense of humor. My Mom is 83 and not nearly as mentally fit as you. I love that you dance to the TV and make faces in the mirror. These are the types of things that keep you young.

[narla]

I am just learning who I was, who I am and who I want to be.I hope I have your spirit when I'm 83.I actually thought your last post was well written and I took it as tongue in cheek,we have to laugh  sometimes,I'm 182 days clean and I will never go back to the old me,with help from my family,people at Medhelp and my counsellor.
My life is moving forward.

Denise  

[dominosarah]

Who am i?  I am dominosarah and i have 667 days clean....I will move heaven and earth to stay clean as it is very sacred to me.......

I am truely sorry to hear about all the losses you have experienced lately.  That has to be tough.  I hope your sister will be okay too.....

Your age may be 83 but you got the spirit of a 20 yr old!!!  I still like when momma brings the smack down on you!!!!  LOL