Dr,s appointment

[stilltrying1965]

Well i thought i would let you all know how my appointment went today. Well i met Dr Bowes he was just like a normal guy and made me feel at ease straight away. We spoke about my drug addiction and what cozed it the abuse i suffered as a child.I started to panick when we started to talk about my childhood but he told me to just take my time with it. He said he would not push me for answers they will come. I may not always see him there are a team of ppl that work for him. I staid about an hour and he gave me some litreture to come home with. He feels that when i get this out that will be me i will have left that little boy who was abused behind in my life. He kept stressing that it was not my fault.But i was happy with how the appointment went he can also help me with the drugs as this is how i strted useing when i leave the abused boy behind i can leave the guilt behind so i have another appointment two weeks today. I want to thank Lizzie lou for finding this dr for me well thats who my appointmentwent ,,,,,James

[LIZZIE LOU]

dangit ! ! !  i've been looking for this post since yesterday morning and somehow i overlooked it.

you are awesome james.  i know how hard it was for you to take that first step...to walk into that office and sit in front of a total stranger and tell your story.   this shows me that you are serious about your recovery.

i'm interested in knowing if he explained to you about the EMDR therapy and how it works?

[stilltrying1965]

Thanks Avis i dont see problem in my post being moved. You are so right they can not all stay on the addiction side ,,,,james

[avisg]

James is right ....Not every post can stay on the addiction side .

[stilltrying1965]

Sophie Vicki your guess is as good as mine as to why it was moved. Most probibly coz it was not a direct question about grugs.But not to worry its been moved and thats that ,,,,James

[vicki595]

Sophie~

Who knows...!

V.

[SophieShine]

Why has this been switched to the social side?????

[vicki595]

Hey Handsome!!  Good for you!!   I know you're trying so hard to put the past behind you.  Now you've taken that first step and it was a big one!  I'm so proud of you,James.

It will all work out and it does take time. You'll find the place to put all those memories so they don't keep popping up. Dr. Bowes and his staff will help you with that. Try to be patient.  In the meantime,you know we're here.  

Keep posting and checking in~ I don't know why I didn't see this post earlier.  :(

Love to you and Kim!
Vicki  xo

[stilltrying1965]

Than you for understanding me ,,,James

[dominosarah]

You just focus on your recovery James.  That is what is important.

[stilltrying1965]

Everytime i go to answer someone i cant think ofanythingto say im not leaving i just dont think i can answer ppl,s posts I can write my own and Sophie you are right i feel down coz iwas on such a high yesterday now i have to wait two weeks to see this great doctor he helpeedme more in 1 hour than iv ever been helped since i was twelve.But im not going anywhere justneed to get myproblem sorted out Thank you all for the support you really dont know what it means to me ,,,,,James

[dominosarah]

Im glad you are finally dealing with this James.  You deserve to live a happy life......sara

[cathy5841]

James, you can help others with what you have experienced...this forum helps you and while it is helping you, you are helping others...dont leave now, you need us and we need you...

[stilltrying1965]

I ment by my last post that i wold not be answering others as i dont feel like i can help them I go to right somthing and my mind goes blank. If i cant help anyone else it makes me sad as somany have helped me . I will post for myself and when im feeling better then maybe i can help others ,,,,,James PS thank you all for your answers it means soooo much to me personaly

[SophieShine]

James why is this your last post? and why won't you be around for a while? What is happening James? I can feel you're down.....

[IBKleen]

I am so happy that Lizzie found this doctor for you. He sounds like he knows his stuff!

James, you didn't get "broken" overnight. It took years of abuse at the hands of others and your own as well to bring you where you are today. It will take time to get "fixed". Please be patient...it will come.

This was a huge step for you and I am so very proud that you went through it and you are talking about it. Please stay with it.

[cathy5841]

so g;ad you found a Dr you were comfortable with...i KNOW you will get through this and be all God has planned for you to be.  you are a great guy James...so very proud of how far you and Kim have come...

WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOUR LAST POST??

[laurel453]

ohh, i didn't see your post , it's been overlooked because it was almost out of sight, this is the reason you haven't had more answers, i'm sure :)

because we are all here pulling for you and it's great how are you working this now, i'm sure this the first step of a good think.

congrats and really happy for youuu :)

[stilltrying1965]

Thanks for your comments you really do feel bette rwhen we are about to get it out. Im glad you left it behind jade we are no longer victims we are survivors I thought iwould get more answers but this is my last post And thank you for the congrats Jade ,,,James

[Jade59]

Hi James,

I've been waiting all day to see if you'd post about your appt.  I'm so freakin' proud of you for going!!  Glad it went well and you're pleased with the doctor.  I'm also an abuse survivor and it's true...once I left that little abused intimidated girl behind, I started to feel like a grown-up and life got so much better.  It's hard work, but you're up for it, James.  Keep hanging in there and congratulations on 87 days clean today!