So sorry i havent been in touch

[stilltrying1965]

Hi all, im really sorry i havent been on but iv had a lot of serious personal problems that have affected life real bad. \\im still clean though and proud of it as these things would usually be a trigger or an excuse for me to use. There has been a lot of things happening, a couple of you may know one of the things i mean, but it has just been one thing amongst a lot of other things. I also do not have a p.c i can get to just now which drives me mad but there isnt much i can do about it just now and i havent a clue when i will be able to get back on MH which i hate as i miss you guys so much. I havent got the time at the moment to write the personal notes and pms to you all to let you know whats been happening. It is so frustrating as i do depend on your support a lot. But the main thing is that i have managed to stay clean, so i can support my family through these terrible times.  I hope i can get on a pc soon as i so want to talk to you all and really miss your help. Miss you all and sending loads of love and hugs to you. Kim also sends her love to you all,,,,,,,,,James

[vicki595]

Hey Handsome!!  Check in when you can!  Do I have to call you??  HAHA!

It's great that you're "walking the line"!!  You must feel a lot better!

xoxo

[10356]

It is good to hear from you James I was just beginning to worry and not just about you being clean.. I'm glad Kim is still fighting and very sorry to read of all you are going thru.. I will look forward to when you can get the time on a cp to let me know what is going on. my support I would gladly add.. although I'm very sorry to read it has been so rough.. You are getting close your your year James !! I'm very Proud for you ! You have come a long way !! I send my love to you Kim and the kids..

Navajo prayer..

O you who dwell In the house made of the dawn,
In the house made of the evening twilight . . .
Where the dark mist curtains the doorway,
The path to which is on the rainbow . . .
I have made your sacrifice.
I have prepared a smoke for you.

My feet restore for me.
My limbs restore for me.
My body restore for me.
My mind restore for me.
My voice restore for me.

Today, take away your spell from me.
Away from me you have taken it.
Far Off from me you have taken it.

Happily I recover.
Happily my interior becomes cool.
Happily my eyes regain their power.
Happily my head becomes cool.
Happily my limbs regain their power.
Happily I hear again.
Happily for me the spell is taken Off.

Happily I walk.
Impervious to pain, I walk.
Feeling light within, I walk . . .
In beauty I walk.
With beauty before me, I walk.
With beauty behind me, I walk.
With beauty below me, I walk.
With beauty all around me, I walk.

It is finished in beauty.
It is finished in beauty.
It is finished in beauty.

warm hugs letakos

[Sad_Woman]

Great to hear from you my friend! And glad to hear your still fighting the good fight. I hope you can get on soon more often, it sounds like you really need support right now. STAY STRONG as you have been. Your in my prayers and I hope things get better.

[atthebeach]

hey my friend. have been worried about you. thanks for checking in.
so glad you are still fighting the fight. congrats on your almost year of sobriety. you have fought hard. so proud of you
i am praying for your family and keeping you in my thoughts.
keep the faith, keep on keepin on
the LORD is with you
debbie

[stilltrying1965]

thanks guys ill try to get back online a.s.a.p . hope you are all well and good. take real good care of yourselves i hope to speak to you all real soon. and all you guys keep up the good fight coz i am . take care all ...james

[gnarly_1]

HEY James sorry about your computer problem here in phx we have used places that refubish and sell off older computers there usually only a yr or 2 old and usually from a bissness last time i was there they had 15 of the same kind all going for 75 bucks 2.8gig 2 gigs of ram and a 20 gig hard drive not your gamer type but enough to get you back on the net they even had flat screen monitors for 40 bucks you should see im sure somewhere in london they have such places anyway how the he11 are you long time no here hope Kim is doing better do your best to stay in touch he11 a lot of people access our site with smart phones you can get one on e/bay cheep like 50 bucks do some checking around im sure you will come up with a solution hang in there my friend your buddy Mark  

[eagle101]

Glad that you were able to check in, James. Also glad to get your report. still clean is very good.I know how hard that you worked to able to say that.  Many comgratulations and best of luck in all of your edeavors......its also good to catch a "hello" from Kim!!      eagle

[stilltrying1965]

thanks dave to far to go back now hope your good bud life is hard sometimes dave real hard thanks again bud take care dave ill keep on fighting ,,,,,james

[Dav125]

Hang in there James. You've come a very long way from where you were a year ago..The dark days..This too shall pass..Hopefully quickly....Dav