Working along this afternoon and all of a sudden i hit that lull. Like your thoughts come full circle and you feel the wrong in your life at the pit of your stomach. And you have been doing so good today but here it is and you have to acknowledge it, because supressing the grieving is the wrong thing to do. I want to throw up for these minutes, took in the readings and also some of my own. Praying to get through the pain and accept what is out of my control. I really don't want to be in this position in life, it wasn't supposed to be this way.