After a major surgery on my shoulder, I was prescribed percocets, soma, and tramadol. I have been taking for 3yrs now. Im so tired of it. I notice that it has my mind into mush. This is my 3rd time trying to quit in the last 2-3 months. I have always done c/t. This time I have gotten myself done to some days only 3 percs, and 1-2 soma, and some days 5 percs, and 1-2 soma. I have most of the things from the thomas recipe, and I also take those things as well. Is that harmful while still taking the percs? Or will this help at all once I decide to just stop taking the narcotics? I hope that it will be helpful. I am also wondering if the fact that I am now on Vytorin for my high cholesterol, and possibly in perimenopause, is that why I find myself so depressed? I do not work, so just idle time on my hands, and I have soooo many other life problems right now that it only adds to the depression, and makes me want to use more. How do I get out of this horrible agony.
I want me back, I want my mind back. It just feels like I will never be able to get thru this. With the issue of the percs, it is 90 percent mentatl for me at this point, mentally I take them to try to escape the depression, and not feel. I have some anxiety everytime I think about my problems, and I just want it to go away, so I use. This is so hard. I need help.