this is a great thread to start.... thank you! i really want to start cold turkey. i have off of work tomorrow. i know i can do it, but monday morning will be another issue. this is very inspiring!
1. No fear of a random urine.
2. Return of self-esteem.
3. No coping of bad decisions made while high.
9. Being honest with myself and others.
10. Not being scared anymore that someone was going to find out
11. Having extra money for things and not using it on pills
I can't tell you how many mistakes I have found that I did this year. And I thought I was doing OK...NOT
12.. My girlfriends don't hide their purses when I come in the house.
13. My new friends smell better.
14. My family respects me. (That's a biggie).
15. I am employable.
16. I am reliable.
17. We can help other now.
18. We are examples of what to be instead of what not to be.
cant wait to feel all those. .
19. Staying out of jail
20. Someday I can quit giving my hard earned money to the State of TX
21. Being able to experience love
22. Being ok with who I am and where I'm going
23. Getting out of my isolation
24. I helped my 8 year old through a being bullied crisis, when I was using I wouldn't have gave a f--k about something like that.
I have something to be proud of instead of something to hide!
waking up in the morning,putting all my money in one pocket instead of drug money in one and bill money in the other and spending both on,,not kissing dealers and drs *****,, and saying "I"m a RECOVERYING addict"
great list so far! Its getting hard to add things since so many already said what I would say too... but
--being a much better parent!!!
--enjoying all the little moments of life that otherwise you didnt notice when high
--not being a slave anymore
--not having to plan functions, outings, chores etc around pill schedules/supply
--believing in yourself again
I got a couple more Not having to COME DOWN, or deal with guilt infested hell of the next day or kicking opiates!
These are all great.
If you are new. Remember one thing. It is so worth the withdrawals to get free.
this all seems so good............
-being able to look my spouse in the eye
-not having to start everyday with visine for my bloodshot eyes
-not having the weight of "I know I have to stop using these someday, but when and how" on my shoulders
-gaining confidence by getting thru c/t w/d ... I am stronger than I ever knew
-ending the lies ... oh all the lies, about money and everything
-not waiting for deliveries from the fed-ex truck
-not having to keep putting off starting a family b/c I was on the tram
- Not bending over backwards to help out some white trash losers just to get a buzz
- Being able to say NO and mean it
- Being appreciated
- Being able to go to a strangers house and not snoop around
- Saying I am doing well and mean it!
oh my god, i thought i was the only one who planned funtions on the pills, if i was low on pills or didnt get any, i wasnt doing nothing
not having to go thru withdrawals again!!!!
never taking 4000mg of l-tyrosine in the morning and puking them right back up. lol
Not throwing up all the time from too much tylenol..
Not in the process of killing myself
Don't pray for forgivness all the time for wasting my life and resources
I don't worry as much about my liver
Honesty
no more hopelessnes and despair.
liking myslelf again...
being creative.
having a life.
Not always on the Fed Ex/UPS/DHL websites checking tracking numbers. My G*d, what a waste!
feeling what's real- not some synthetic version of it.