Confused and depressed

[Gonzales08]

Today's suppose to be my 7th day clean from doing 30mgs of roxy a day for a whole year. I did slip up and do only 5mgs (and Ik I feel like a failire for it) I feel as if today is like day 2 or 3! Today has been by far the worst! Having horrible sweats, chills, nausea, and a stomach that feel like it's also on fire! I'm starting to think I really prolong these withdrawals by doing that 5mgs are it started me over. If it did then that means I would still only be on day 2. I've been with drawling sense Wednesday though! Idk how much longer I can feel this way! I seem to just get worse an worse instead of better. I'm starting to think maybe it's not w/ds or maybe it's a hormone problem. Idk..

[dedicatedtostop]

Hey Girl!!
Give us something, how are you doing???

[dedicatedtostop]

Girl I am SO proud of you!!! See I told you it was worth it!! Just keep that guard up okay? It's all part of the process, you may have a few bad days here and there but remember how you feel RIGHT now should those days come!!!!
I really really REALLY am proud of how far you came!!

With Love,
Dts

[Gonzales08]

Thanks y'all! Everytime I feel tempted ima just come Back here and look stall my old post and how miserable I felt! Which I dont think I'll ever forget how horrible this process was for me! I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy!

[Frogger76]

Hey there!! Ok, so now you've got me craving ice cream, lol. I'm so proud of you (and your bf). You wanted a change, and suffered your a$$ off to get it. Be proud, be very , very proud of yourself! Don't ever let your guard down though, addiction can be a sneaky sh!t sometimes. Just always be aware, always! Again, congrats...

[Danny111]

Great to hear you sounding so positive today.  Good for you.

[Gonzales08]

Thanks! I'm feeling amazing as of right now and I'm enjoying every second of it. Got my son to school came back folded clothes, cleaned my ENTIRE house then forced myself to walk about a mile in this heat! Sweat was pouring got back and my legs we're killing me from walking so much so I took a hot bath! My boyfriend came home for lunch made him lunch and he invited me to come chill at his job and watch him weld. My spirits has also fully came back to we're I'm eating more than I have in the last year! I am staying hungry! Ate about 5 ice cream cones today and been drinking lost of Gatorade!

[dedicatedtostop]

Great Job!!! I heard many positives in that post!!! This is what we have all been waiting to hear! Take your positives and run w them! Keep up the great work!!!!

Glad to hear about your bf! Perfect example of how everyone is different in this process! Just keep doing what you need to do for yourself and hopefully he will continue to follow suite.

[Gonzales08]

Up getting my son ready for school. Slept more than I have last night in a while so I feel pretty we'll rested! Jut still having the burning of the arms an Chest heaviness. I deff feel like I have way more energy than I did yesterday though ima try n clean my house today and fold these 3 huge basket of clothes today!

Also about the boyfriend he's doing really we'll today will be his 3rd day I think! He seems to be pretty fine though. He's slept way more than I did but I'm thinkin it's just because he's in the beginning stages or something. He is having the craps and also the hot flashes. Praying he doesn't give in!

[Krissy_123]

Hey hun,just a suggestion. You should start at the top of your post here and read through all the answers ppl have given you. I know myself and a few others have told you what releases natural endorphins and sex being one of them.

[bama88]

Put a funny movie on or bore yourself with infomercials this is a process....your doing great.  The only way out is thru.....just keep telling yourself  it's ok to feel like this, it's ok to be like this it's ok to not be ok and bot by bit you'll come back.....I promise.  Slow and steady

[Gonzales08]

Thanks y'all! Just had to make sure he wasn't trying to pull a fast one on me! Lol

Actually went to sleep at 10 tonight, my eye lids were so heavy I ended up passing out! Slept for 2 hours n been up sense 12 with hot flashes! Gonna stay up till I start to feel sleepy again then gonna try some sleep.

[Frogger76]

Sorry to post again so soon, but the reason I was laughing is because if my hubby had told me that while I was detoxing, I'd be hesitant too!  That was too cute!

[dedicatedtostop]

Ahh!! I know how that feels too!! YES!!! He is correct!! Sex is one of the best possible ways to release natural endorphins!

I say go for it!! ;-)

[Frogger76]

Lmao, believe it or not he's actually telling ya the truth. Try it, who knows, it may help more than ya think.

[Gonzales08]

K this is a kinda personal question but hey so is telling the world your a pill head...but I've lost a lot of interest in having sex because of how horrible I feel but my boyfriend says that's a good way to Reese endorphins into the brain and it would make me feel more relaxed is that true or is he just saying that cause he's had to go 7 days with most Likly  jerking it? Lol

[dedicatedtostop]

Hey!!! You almost have another day down!! There really is many ways to keep your mind off this and I know your trying, but this is where aftercare comes into place. You will learn there many ways to keep your mind off of it and.... It's face to face interaction with other addicts!

Your one day closer, get through this day and tackle the next!

[Gonzales08]

I'm trying y'all I really am I've been doing everything y'all been telling me. It's just really hard I'm really trying. The only thing that seems to help me n anyway is the bath tub. My anxiety has gotten a lil better. I'm at my boyfriends parents right now and ate a HUGE dinner. I've laughed a couple times and it did help but the but in sensation I'm feeling all over my body just causes me to think about it. There's no aroun it at all when it comes to keeping my mind off of how I feel.

[dedicatedtostop]

Agreed with the above posters! Hon, we have all been telling you this for the past couple days..please please please, try to find something else to focus on! Anything other than the clock or how your feeling... I really feel that if you take the advice given, you would feel much better!

[Danny111]

Based on your posts, the answers to them, and your responses to those answer it looks like your are so anxious about/obsessed with your physical wd symptoms that you're having a hard time taking in what people are telling you.

You asked about the arm symptoms and several people responded that those are normal wd symptoms, because they are.  

Wd's typically last about two weeks give or take a couple of days.  
You are not going to feel well, either physically or mentally, until that time has passed.  Constantly dwelling on how you feel is going to make it much harder.

[Frogger76]

I wanna first say I'm not trying to be harsh in anyway, but you've got to stop worrying about these wd symptoms, it only makes things worse on ya. The severe anxiety, restless/burning arms and hands, all normal. You need try to stay as active as possible, if your still physically not able to do a whole lot, then keep your mind as busy as you can. Movies, books, music. Sometimes all ya need is a good laugh, try watching a funny movie, sounds nuts, but it really does help. I hope tomorrow goes better for ya! Your gonna be okay, I promise!

[Gonzales08]

Nothing ran test on me n gave me Meds for my stomach. I didn't get nothing for my acidity but I wish I did. :(

[dedicatedtostop]

Hi!!
I have been thinking of you today! That's the WD's.. As above, your going to feel like crap for awhile. Keep pushing forward!

So, I guess I am a bit confused. What did the Dr do for you?

[Gonzales08]

Today my anxiety is HORRIBLE! My chest is so heavy and I went to the doc about my arms n chest because I was worried it was something bad. They told me I've been hyperventilating in my sleep and my body has been in taking a lot of carbon dioxide while I sleep which is giving me the arm sytems. I don't  think I've ever had anxiety this bad. I also have zero energy at all. Like the life gas been sucked out of me. I did get an hour sleep but woke up feeling more exhausted..

[Danny111]

There's no reason for me to retype exactly what the last several posters wrote so I'll just say that I agree with the above posts.  It's obvious from each of your questions that you're spending way to much time and energy thinking/obsessing about how you're feeling and worrying about each thing.  

You're going to feel like crap until you're wd's are over.  They're going to be over in a couple of weeks.  You're not sick and you don't have nerve damage.

You really really really have to just let time pass.