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PLEASE HELP ME I DON'T WANT TO DIE OF THIS DISEASE
Hello My name is Cindy I typed out my life story regarding my addiction that has been going on for 11 years off and on. I don't know what to do from this point, how do I see what others have wrote to me for advice to hopefully help me get out of this situation and this messed up life, I cannot keep doing this I am sick and sooooo tired of this, and I am mad at this disease WHY ME? I have missed out on so much of my childrens life, my daughter will be 18 years old in 24 days Oct. 20 and my son will be 12 on Dec. 22 and my daughter asked if I could get clean and that would be my present to her, what a gift, that was VERY PAINFUL to hear, and only and addict could realize how hard that gift is but it is what she truely deserves, I hope I can do it. If you could please respond to me so I can understand how to use your website or if it is at all possible can anyone from your website call me, I don't know if you have drs. that can call that would be so helpful, but it is fine if someone from customer service can call me and guide me through the website. This is a 100% reach out for help, I cannot contunie this lifestyle, I am so sick and tired. I have been calling places that do medical detoxing and I have medical insurance and I have meet my deductible for the year and it is Aetna PPO and they pay 70% of it and I have to come up with 30% which some places I have talked to is approx. $3800.00 to the lowest I have got is $2700.00 and I don't have that kind of money. My husband works but all our money goes to bills which we have alot of and household overhead we have no savings and we live paycheck to paycheck, so I don't have the money for my portion to get myself into a medical detox and then hopefully stay at a rehab and start treatment to get my life back and LEARN THE TOOLS TO STAY SOBER AND STAY INVOLVED IN AA IN MY TOWN WHEN I WOULD GET OUT OF REHAB!!!!!!!!! PLEASE HELP, I DON'T WANT TO DIE FROM THIS DISEASE!!! Hopefully maybe you will know where I could possibly go to be medically detoxed for free like a county bed or somewhere that is not that much money, or who I could reach out to for help that would donate money to pay for my detox and rehab, I pray to GOD someone can help me, even if they may have payment plans I could do that, PLEASE HELP ME I WANT MY LIFE BACK, I DON'T WANT TO DIE, I WANT TO BE A SOBER MOM, WIFE, DAUGHTER, FRIEND. THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR YOUR TIME, I WILL BE WAITING TO HEAR BACK FROM YOU HOPEFULLY VERY VERY SOON. GOD BLESS YOU.
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HI and welcome to the forum.......many people find the co/pays on ins very high.....to high to aford detoxing at a rehab on the bright side we do home detox every day here and it works for all but the most extreme habits I just want you to know there is hope and our success rate is high the first thing I would ask you is what are you hooked on anfd how much of it do you take a day??? also for how long?? if your in fairly good health there is no reason you cant do this from the comfort of your own home we will walk you threw it and guide you along the way we will offer advise that comes from yrs of experience doing this first off its always a good idea to read the other post of people going threw it it will take out some of the fear it will lso give you an idea of what to expect spend some time reading the site (this page) look up the health pages also look up the thomas recipe it will give you a list of stuff that will make this a bit more cofortable as your doing this start to prepare yourself mentaly a positive attitude will get you farther then any one thing so anyways you got some food for thought we will have more for you when you pick a start date get back to me with those questions I will wait to here from you good luck and God bless......Gnarly
I agree with what everyone has said. I was not addicted as long as you but was terrified to stop taking my pills. It was bad. So many of us cab relate on some level to your story. Like Gnarly said, there is a really high success rate for people on this forum. Because we see it can be done and there are OTC things you can take which will help with WD.
Ypu took the first step by reaching out. Keep posting. That's how I finally found the courage. I'm almost 9 days clean and seriously never thought I would make it. You can do this!!!
Ypu took the first step by reaching out. Keep posting. That's how I finally found the courage. I'm almost 9 days clean and seriously never thought I would make it. You can do this!!!
This site and the helpful people helped me so much in getting the opiate addiction off my back. I am 16 days clean and still going. I posted my needs and they delivered and supported me. There are options to home detox,,, one is taper (which I could not do) and cold turkey (ct) which I did. I used the Thomas Recipe to help and it did. I did not use it the last time and I failed at home detox and went back to the pills. It was too hard..this time seemed to take for now. The rest is mental...how to stay off...and that will take me one day at a time. I hope you will look at all options and post so that others can help. Good luck. If your family can support you that will make all the difference. Tell them honestly what is happening and why if you can. Good luck.
Hi Cindy.. That is my lil sisters name :) Welcome to the forum I'm very glad you found us.. I know how difficult it is to have your child ask you to get clean. it is heartbreaking.. Although you have been using for 11 years with some clean breaks you can still detox at home as long as you do not have underlying medical problems the safest way is always a taper. this would require you coming clean with your family of your intake and a resolve on getting clean. turning over your meds to your hubby he could help you with a taper. you would feel wd but they would be minor compared to ct. Once off for a few days our emotions really come crashing in as the opiates have been keeping us in a fog. this is where support it good Us here and maybe a AA NA meeting also since you have insurance it would be very good for you to see a counselor a phyc our addiction therapist. we use for a reason and ferreting out the reason and dealing with it makes it better.. You can get yourself back You can gain the trust of your family back and You can do this. so take a deep breath and ask yourself are you really sick and tired of being numb of searching for pills and closing off your family ? I hope so for life is to precious to squander it with the watching the clock and of how to get pills and how many you have.. You can also ct and get it over with it takes a week of feeling bad and a few more of feeling odd but Believe me it is worth the effort.. I wish you the very best. lesa
Hi there!
As Sara asked: How many pills per day?
Have you ever detoxed at home or stopped taking them before? Or is this the first time trying to quit?
You could do this at home; try that first! You could taper down and be less miserable at your last dose or just stop. It IS a real commitment to get clean. It just depends on how much it's worth to you!
You can do it and we'll help!
As Sara asked: How many pills per day?
Have you ever detoxed at home or stopped taking them before? Or is this the first time trying to quit?
You could do this at home; try that first! You could taper down and be less miserable at your last dose or just stop. It IS a real commitment to get clean. It just depends on how much it's worth to you!
You can do it and we'll help!
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Hi and welcome to the forum~
How much do you take daily? Getting and staying clean requires a real commitment to yourself. Using is just a symptom of what is really going on with you. Have you thought about recovery care? That is very important. You dont have to be a prisoner to these pills, there is a life out there with your name on it~~sara
How much do you take daily? Getting and staying clean requires a real commitment to yourself. Using is just a symptom of what is really going on with you. Have you thought about recovery care? That is very important. You dont have to be a prisoner to these pills, there is a life out there with your name on it~~sara
I am addicted to pain medication norcos percocets, oxys, roxys, basically opoaties,(I don't know how to spell it) u think I would seeing I have been taking them for 11years!
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