Report on Day 49
Thank you so much everyone that helped me. This board was really an inspiration to me during those 1st days when I was really suffering and needed it most.
I am now pretty much fully recovered. I eat very well, I go to the gym everyday, I sleep with no problems every night. Physically I have my strength back, I can run several kilometers as well as walk for hours without getting tired and I am at peace. I am not depressed at all I SO HAPPY to have my health and my life back.
Those last days on Oxy I remember well. I liken it too being in an out of control car, speeding down the highway the wrong way with no brakes or steering. You know you are about to go down hard. You just don't know whats going to get you 1st. At 1000 mgs of that crap per day I felt like it was just a matter of time before I od'd.
Looking back now on those 1st few days of hell It really was not as bad as I thought it would be. And now I hold those days of suffering close, I think about how I felt then because I don't ever want to feel like that again. Its not worth it.
God Bless Everyone. Please stay clean. I think that all drugs are just a big lie. Like the Devil they promise you instant gratification and peace from either physical pain or mental anguish but what they take away from you in the end is 10X the little relief the offered in the 1st place.
Thanks again Everyone that helped. You don't even know me but you took time out of your day to post messages of encouragement filled with great advise.
Report on Day 11
1st of thanks Annie much appreciated. Taking it easy on the valium, not really feeling pain anymore so I don't need them except if I cant fall asleep tonight I will drop 20 mgs and see if that works. In any case have not used any yet today.
I feel great today, happy, strong, the amino acids, vitamines and steady fish diet has done wonders. Still though every time we go out I tire out after about 20 minutes so I feel like I have more energy then I actually have.
The muscle spasms and pain I felt even 3 days ago is gone now. I am a bit concerned as I have an 11 hour flight tomorrow but my lawyer will show me off and make sure porters carry my bags and my girl will be by my side so pretty much everything will be done for me. Also I am in 1st class so I will have plenty of room to stretch out but still 11 hours is a long time to be on an airplane in my weakened state.
I will point out again 1st 5 days were a living hell and the main battle was to keep hydrated. Its very simple the more dehydrated u are the weaker u are I had to go to hospital and have 3 gallons of saline solution injected otherwise I think I would have died.
preceding 5 days were still alot of pain, cant eat, cant sleap but here at day 11 things are really turning around. I have little to now pain, my legs feel relaxed I am on the phone all day with business contacts and I find myself forgetting that I am still detoxinng like I feel like just a normal person again.
I will continue to report on my progress. Thank you so much for all the wonderful advice I have received here and if u are in the 1st few days of detox just remember, every minute that goes by u are closer to feeling better again.
Much Love,
Mark
Whoah...Screech! (brakes:) That's a pretty high dose of Valium my friend. Not only is it addictive but it's a CNS depressant & you can OD on them.
No, the w/d's are not the same as with an opiate. There is a risk of seizures with prolonged use. (Although Valium is probably marginally safer than say, Xanax in this respect but there's no guarantee). The symptoms usually involve extended sleep loss, gut issues (as they mess with your serotonin levels), rebound anxiety & tremors. I don't think you'll go through w/d's after 5 days but I'd taper off them. Don't stop abruptly. Your system already has enough to deal with. If possible please, consult a Dr. about it. 50 mgs? (No wonder it helped with sleep during the acutes!) ;)) The fact of the matter, is that we have to heal & one of the symptoms is poor sleep or sleeplessness at first. (No way around it!) Better to do it sooner than later, though (when the issue might be complicated by a further addiction, eh?).
All Good Things Your Way,
Annie
I took 5 10 mg pills last night at around 10 pm and was sleeping like a rock within 20 minutes.
So valieum is as addictive as heroin with similar withdrawals?? will I go thru withdrawels after 5 days use avrg 50 mgs per day??
thanks anyone!
Mark
Wow EvolverU thank you for that.
What an idiot I was I was under the impression they were not addictive at all. About 10 minutes on Google taught my otherwise Valium/ Diazipan is HIGHLY ADDICTIVE I really had no idea.
Well I will be very carefull then, it has been a tremendous sleep aid over the past 2 days but I have no interest whatsoever to develop a new addiction. I have a flight to Europe on Thursday. I guess I will continue to use them until then to help me sleep and then dump whatever remaing pills I have before I board the flight.
Dr perscrbied me 100 10mg pills so I have a bunch of it. Will I get addicted if I use the Valium for 2 more days?
that would be 5 days fairly heavy use?
anyone have any ideas? or should I just dump the 80 pills or so I have left down the toilet right now??
Mark
confused. I did not know diazipan was addictive
Mark,
Huge Props to you on your kick!! You came off a high dose of Oxycontin & I'm glad that you used the M'done as a transition & didn't stay on it (as it can be an even worse kick:) I'm also happy to hear that you're eating, exercising & hydrating so well! (Way to go!!) The only thing that I'd caution you about is the benzos. (& I say this from experience). They are a whole different animal to kick & tolerance can build quickly & can interfere with True neurological healing (read: sleep, energy & emotional balance). So, if you're still taking them (though I completely understand the need for some to take them initially), please, be very careful! Good Luck on your trip & Thanks for the update!:))