Thanks guys :)

[MissyJoelle]

Ok maybe I was feeling a bit sorry for myself and I should toughen up.  I mean I bet sometimes I can come off sounding high and mighty and I will keep that in check cause if you guys really knew my heart everyone would know I just want to hug the entire world I really do.  I don't have a computer at home so a lot of the posts/replies I do on my blackberry and it is hard to see everything that I am saying and replying too.

So thanks to lil_rab2005, htp115, Brian4040 and KVNJ.  I will keep coming back and I am so glad you like what I have to say cause I really want to help.  I was just telling my nephew to never touch pain meds ever.  And Brian I am so glad what I said was helpfull.  That really makes everything worth it.

[htp115]

anytime sweety....we're all family here, unfortunately this is an "online-forum" so we have come to learn how to take the good with the bad....

i can promise you that the GOOD outweighs the BAD by far.....

i'm glad you decided not to let one person scare you off... and you dont need to "toughen up" i can read between the lines and see that you do have a good heart and good intentions....dont ever let anyone change that....

i'm off to bed, hope to talk with you some more tomorrow

night....

luv ya,
tink  :)

[lil_rab2005]

You are so very welcome sweetie.  Any time.  I totally agree with tink again one more time on everything she just said, I would've said if she didn't lol.  You are such a sweet and supportive person.  I've been comin' to this forum for about a month and a half now and there are a couple of people here that change names over and over and start **** with anyone they please just to upset them for the fun of it.  Then there are people that just lash out badly and wrongly when they see something that hits a nerve I guess, I dunno.  But try and just ignore the people that do that ok?  I try to.  Sometimes it hits hard with me too.  One time I let it get to me enough not to come back for about a week or so.  My story, I have a hubby of 14 years and three beautiful children by him.  I started taking oxycodone 30mg and percocet 10mg for my back and knee.  A couple things wrong with my lower back and arthritis on top of it and arthritis in my knee.  

Started taking that about 2 1/2 years ago.  About 2 years ago I started upping it more and more til about a year ago, I then was up to about 400 - 500mg of oxys and percs a day.  I don't know how I didn't kill myself.  But I didn't and I wasn't even thinking about that.  All I was thinkin' about was getting that initial high back and it wasn't workin' so i upped and upped and upped.  The most I ever quit was 2 or 3 days at a time before I started comin' to this forum.  With the support and advice of alot of people on this forum, I quit for a whole 13 days.  Then I let someone upset me on here (and I'm not blamin' them for me going back to using) so I left for about a week and that's when I started takin a few a day.  Now I'm only doing about 3 or 5 every few days or so.  But my goal is to totally stop taking them altogether.  I want to stop goin' to the pain management doc and go back to the clinic and get back on neurontin and ultram.  Ultram is addicting but for some reason I never became addicted to them so that is my goal.  And yes, if you call this long winded, then I'm a very long winded person sometimes lol.  :)  

I want my children to have a clean mommy that will spend time with them and not the pills.  Now that I'm only taking a few every couple of days, they have there mommy back in the majority but I want them to have their mommy's FULL ATTENTION AT ALL TIMES.  And that's never gonna happen til' I am totally quitting the pills altogether.

I hope this helps, and I'm so glad u decided to stay.  Take care and god bless.  You are in my prayers sweetie.  Hugz and luvs ya, Lil.  :)