anytime sweety....we're all family here, unfortunately this is an "online-forum" so we have come to learn how to take the good with the bad....
i can promise you that the GOOD outweighs the BAD by far.....
i'm glad you decided not to let one person scare you off... and you dont need to "toughen up" i can read between the lines and see that you do have a good heart and good intentions....dont ever let anyone change that....
i'm off to bed, hope to talk with you some more tomorrow
night....
luv ya,
tink :)
You are so very welcome sweetie. Any time. I totally agree with tink again one more time on everything she just said, I would've said if she didn't lol. You are such a sweet and supportive person. I've been comin' to this forum for about a month and a half now and there are a couple of people here that change names over and over and start **** with anyone they please just to upset them for the fun of it. Then there are people that just lash out badly and wrongly when they see something that hits a nerve I guess, I dunno. But try and just ignore the people that do that ok? I try to. Sometimes it hits hard with me too. One time I let it get to me enough not to come back for about a week or so. My story, I have a hubby of 14 years and three beautiful children by him. I started taking oxycodone 30mg and percocet 10mg for my back and knee. A couple things wrong with my lower back and arthritis on top of it and arthritis in my knee.
Started taking that about 2 1/2 years ago. About 2 years ago I started upping it more and more til about a year ago, I then was up to about 400 - 500mg of oxys and percs a day. I don't know how I didn't kill myself. But I didn't and I wasn't even thinking about that. All I was thinkin' about was getting that initial high back and it wasn't workin' so i upped and upped and upped. The most I ever quit was 2 or 3 days at a time before I started comin' to this forum. With the support and advice of alot of people on this forum, I quit for a whole 13 days. Then I let someone upset me on here (and I'm not blamin' them for me going back to using) so I left for about a week and that's when I started takin a few a day. Now I'm only doing about 3 or 5 every few days or so. But my goal is to totally stop taking them altogether. I want to stop goin' to the pain management doc and go back to the clinic and get back on neurontin and ultram. Ultram is addicting but for some reason I never became addicted to them so that is my goal. And yes, if you call this long winded, then I'm a very long winded person sometimes lol. :)
I want my children to have a clean mommy that will spend time with them and not the pills. Now that I'm only taking a few every couple of days, they have there mommy back in the majority but I want them to have their mommy's FULL ATTENTION AT ALL TIMES. And that's never gonna happen til' I am totally quitting the pills altogether.
I hope this helps, and I'm so glad u decided to stay. Take care and god bless. You are in my prayers sweetie. Hugz and luvs ya, Lil. :)