Drug addiction

[christy463]

I am new to this forum, I have recently got into alot of trouble. I just graduated from school as a certified medical assistant. I got a job at a local urgent care. I became desperate for Vicodin, so I done the most stupid thing in my life, I stole some blank scripts and had a freind of mine wrote vicodin for me. We got busted I lost my job, and I have not been to court yet. I am still craving those damn pills, i am withdrawing like crazy I need some help. My husband has done nothing but call me a crackhead and bunch of other names. I feel like i have let everyone down.

[NautyOne]

You have to understand how your husband feels.  How would you feel if he did that?..You have to not worry about that right now and get yourself together.  What you did is a serious crime, and I would get my butt in some kind of program, NA, AA, Rehab center....something.  The wrong jugde and you can be in deep doo doo.  There is some really good advice.....Please take it.

I wish you the best & please keep posting and reading here.  There is a lot of good advice and support.

luv,
Nauty..........

[PanSinoeis]

If you have to go to court, try to get them to get you help, like Rehab or something, not jail.  But I'm sure your attorney knows what to do.  But I hope it all goes well for you.  Sounds like you learned your lesson, that's for sure.  I had my own battles in the past with Vicodin, so I do understand.  They can put quite the hold on people.  Good Luck!

[worried878]

making advances to recovery like gettig into groups etc will definitely help ur case when it comes to court..and it will help u which is most important

[cathy5841]

i agree you need to go to rehab....it wll help you in court.  but, more than that you can come out of rehab clean and continue to stay that way.  there is great support here but i agree na meetings are good too.  good luck and keep us posted.

[OXY_FREE]

The pull we feel when we have an addiction to pain pill is very hard to deal with.
How long have been with out any pills?I can help more if i know..
In a few days you will start to feel better and then i would start going to na i think the courts will go alot easer on you if they see you are trying to get help.
get back at me let me know how many days you have been off the vics.
   talk soon,OXY

[Clamity2]

"This too shall pass"   Those were some of the words I told myself when I thought my world was crashing down on my head. I had some tough times as a result of my alcoholism and most recently my 6 year addiction to vics.
  I hope you live in a place that has N.A meetings. If you don't all it takes is a place to hold one and another addict with a desire to get clean. And the N.A books. I started a A.A group with one other girl, we were both trying to get sober and unable to travel to the closest meetings. The Grafton N.Y library allowed us to have the basement space free until we could collect enough dues to pay something. But now it is over 20 years later and the meeting is a very popular place on thursday nights.
You will be grateful for what has happened to you. It's hard to believe now but any addict on here finally free of the need of opiates will tell you how wonderful it is to be free of the chase.

[laurel453]

i agree with them . whatever happens in the future, if you go to rehab will be better for you, it's not a matter of ct or not, you need probes of your determination too. don't punish yourself more and start looking for help and a place to rehab. .... you'll feel much better once you have taken those steps and you're the  first who has to look for and find  the end of the tunnel. good luck, christy

[owhatamistake]

avisg is SO right!  The court looks much more highly on a person who has a rehab cert. or has been in contact with a center!  How long do you have before you have to go to court?  One thing your husband will hopefully realize is that no one....and I mean NO ONE.....can mentally beat up an addict or call them more names than they already call themselves.  Try not to let that get to you right now....you have MUCH bigger fish to fry....and you CAN do it!  The best of luck!

[kberrier]

Well, I'm sure you learned your lesson.  I'm not going to sit here and preach to you because I'm sure you already feel horrible enough.  If you decide to stay clean off of the Vics then you are going to have to deal with the withdrawls.  So, start getting some rest, take some immodium for the loose stool, take some vitamins, drink lots of fluids and I think you may need to go to some type of support group like NA or something.  You obviously have a serious problem if you have resorted to stealing script pads.  This is not the end of the world though.  You have hit a bottom and it's now time to build yourself back up.  If your husband isn't making you feel any better than you need to find some place that will give you some support.  This is a very good place for that.  This site has been VERY helpful for me so I know it could be a good base support for you.  You just need to decide what you are going to do and move forward.  I wish the best of luck to you and let me know if you need to talk or vent.  Take care!
Kristi

[avisg]

Get your self into a recovery program ASAP first off its better to go into court already seeking help for your problem .Secondly your hubby will see you are seriously trying to get better .Don't worry about who you let down just worry about getting yourself better .